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  1. Thank you all. Tom, please do share wherever you think it can help someone, it would mean a lot to me and my wife to help prevent this happening to others
  2. Too late for my daughter, we bury her next week. I have no words, so I will just post my wife's. This took a lot out of me emotionally but if it can open one persons eyes and make them chose against that one last high its worth it. If you are reading this and know of someone or even yet, if you are thinking about using please know you are loved and there is help for you and for the love of God take it! That one last high....That one last high destroyed everything good.. That one last high sounded like a good idea at the time I guess... just one last time turned into forever. That one last high lead to two state troopers ringing my doorbell at 8:00 pm last night. Telling me my beautiful daughter is gone. My precious little girl, my first true love. That one last high led to me explaining to her brother, father, cousins, aunts and uncles that she had died. That one last high led me to find a funeral home only 15 hours after being told this life altering news. Staring at her last pictures of my sweet girls face and her precious little girl she sent me only a day before all this happened and while I wait for the autopsy results. That one last high led me to hold her babies and cry... holding them ever so tight and kissing them as to let them know I got them and I will do anything to see that they are safe and sound. That one last high that I know will lead us to a room, brain in a fog, staring at caskets trying to decide which one our little girl should be buried in. That one last high that will lead us to writing an obituary, planning a funeral and probably a house full of flowers from grieving friends and family. That one last high left us having to make a decision whether to do an open or closed casket. Picking out clothes for the day we will have to bury her. That one last high led me to going through countless pictures from her first breath til her last. Having to make memory boards ... trying to fit almost 28 years into a white board. That one last high that I know will lead me to my knees in front of her casket. Pleading with God. Demanding him to rewind time. Yelling if he is so almighty why can’t he take it back. Staring through a haze, mindlessly answering phone calls and saying thank you for your support repeatedly while trying to comfort her friends. That one last high that is going to lead us to a cemetery, where I will have to watch her father and brother have to say one last good bye. Where I will be there for her for the very last time. That one last high where I know I will want to stare at her casket for an hour after everyone had left the graveside. Scared to leave my baby girl alone. That one last high that will lead her to a grave site where she will be staying with her great- grandmother , great-grandfather and other family members that have been gone long ago, so she doesn’t have to be alone, knowing they will hold her hand on her way to heaven. That one last high that had lasted for the past 4 years, ever since she met and kept going back to the man who introduced her to this, the same man who kept providing it to her, the same man who became her boyfriend, the same man who is the biological father of these two innocent babies. That one last high that has left us devastated, has turned my hair white and added 10 years to my face. That one last high has already left many empty days and dreaded nights. Mornings that turn into evenings with no memory of the day. That one last high led me on a search for who she used to be and now leads me on a search for her ghost and for who she used to be everywhere. I am a broken mother because of one last high.
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    American Whiskeys

    Blantons is my go to, fantastic bourbon. After that, it is in no particular order: Basil Hayden Hudson Koval I acknowledge that Hudson and Koval are not from Kentucky, and thus may not be technically considered bourbons. Still, they are pretty good bourbon style whiskeys.
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    How Did You Pick Your Profession?

    I think it depends on the person and the job. Some folks want to punch a clock and get paid, and I don't think there is anything wrong with that. For me, I don't function well punching a clock to collect a paycheck. I am not very good unless I am having fun and finding purpose in my work, and I suppose for the same reason that is what I expect from people who work for me. I tell folks that if they are not enjoying their work and passionate about it, that there are a lot of other places that will pay them the same to punch a clock and put in their 8 hours a day. If they work for me, I want more than their time, I want their passion, purpose, and energy. I want them to think about what we are building while they are commuting, eating, showering, and sleeping.
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    How Did You Pick Your Profession?

    Back when I was a kid, I convinced my parents to get a TI pc. It was exceedingly primitive, using a cassette player for storage and a tv as the monitor, but for me at the time it was the most incredible machine I had seen. I spent a marathon couple days coding a video game, which really pissed off my siblings since that meant they could not watch tv since my parents deemed my more educational use of the tv as the priority. The next year my parents bought an IBM compatible PC, however it as meant for "real work" and so was off limits to us kids. I managed to gain access to it by offering to write a program to computerize the record keeping for my mother's business. I loved coding. Years later in HS, they had added a programming class however it was new and the teacher was not an expert but simply the math teacher who had taken a summer class. I knew more about coding than him, and being a teenager I felt compelled to point that out. Not a good idea, and it got me kicked out of the class. At the time I was really into sailing; racing, teaching, and anything else that kept me on the water. After getting kicked out I forgot about computers for quite a while. Coming out of school, I went to work on wall st and quickly came to loathe it. I was making good money, but hated the work. I ended up leaving and going to work in software sales. That ended quickly as well when I realized the developers on the other side of the building were working fewer hours with less stress and making more than I was all while doing something I actually liked to do. I left the sales job and opened up my own small (1 person/ me) shop doing custom software development. That was in 1994, just before the dotcom boom got underway. Ended up moving into a couple different startups, and finally stuck with one which then got bought, and then sold off. I still loved it, but was tired of the commute and decided to go back to my one man consulting shop. I did that for 5 or 6 years thinking I would wind down my career and retire early. Then the combination of the 2008 RE crash and the adoption of our youngest altered the plans. So I went about resurrecting my career, and am now running the product incubation activities for a great company. I love what I do now, work my ass off but never get bored. My plans for early retirement and going cruising have been shelved, but that is not a bad thing since, since as I approach 50 I no longer find living on a boat an appealing idea.
  6. I would agree that information has historically been power. That however is related to it's scarcity which leads to asymmetrical distribution, which then leads to one side having power over the other. If your boss knows everything about you and you know nothing about your boss, that is an asymmetrical knowledge distribution which leads to disproportionate distribution of power. If however you both know everything about each other, then there is no asymmetry and there is no disproportionate power. You both hold equal positions. Think about as electric and air, if electric were to become as ubiquitous as air, then the power companies would be powerless. When all information is available to all people all the time, then there would be no value to those who hold it, only to those who can create something of value with it. It loses it's destructive power.
  7. privacy != freedom The risk is when there is an expectation of privacy, that privacy is violated, and the data is selectively used to compromise someone either through extortion or prosecution, or the threat of same. If we had no such expectations, and all data was public all the time, those threats are substantially mitigated if not eliminated. You can do whatever you want, it is just that everyone will know about it. There would be no hiding anything. A case could be made that such a world would stifle creativity and independence, but a case could also be made that it would be liberating, that it would be more like turning the light on and finding there is no monster under the bed or in the closet.
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    Black in America

    Sorry, but "listen" is not an answer once you agree on the problem. Listening is useful to get you to a point of common understanding of the problem to be solved, once you get there, then simply listening to further explanations of the problem does not serve progress. I think this is what Jeff is trying to point out, and on that I would agree with him. The problem is that some folks mistake reading a twitter feed for listening, and mistake reading a twitter feed as being of some value. It is neither. I believe a significant cause of much of our social ills of late is the emergence of social media and it's reward system for narcissism in the form of likes and retweets. You don't get those rewards for having rational and moderate conversations, as you would in the past in a typical human to human interaction. Instead, you get likes and retweets for bragging and complaining. New car or expensive vacation? Lots of likes and retweets. Victim of racism, sexism, or bad luck? lots of likes (or sad face emoticons) and retweets. I am sure that lots of the stories of misfortune and victimization are real, however it distorts our perceptions of the world we live in when all that is visible and rewarded are the extremes of life, everything is great or everything is awful, and when the only people who get attention and thus are perceived as valuable in the world of social media, are those who spend most of their time posting in one or both of those extremes. It makes having a normal life seem unworthy, and encourages folks to find extremes in their own life to post about. I don't have an answer, there may not be one. We may just be fucked as a society. Or, it may be that as emerging technologies start to undermine the stranglehold that Google, Twitter, and Facebook have on our collective attention, that the algorithms which both enrich them and enrage us, will cease driving us into the abyss. Only time will tell. I will offer one small personal observation. All my children are hispanic with one parent who was a recent hispanic immigrant. My youngest has autism as well. If you think the unemployment rate is bad for blacks, take a look at what it is for someone with autism. Likewise, discrimination against someone with autism is widespread and accepted. Still, what I have taught and continue to teach my children, is that they are not the ones at a disadvantage, but instead that those who live without the truth are the ones at a disadvantage. To be certain, those who live in ignorance can place obstacles in our paths, but we can overcome obstacles and it is far worse to live in ignorance and not understanding the truth than it is to overcome hardships. Overcoming hardships can add to our character, while living in ignorance adds no value to anything or anyone. It is an illusion to think that there are racists, or those who discriminate against uniquely challenged individuals, who live better than us. It is an oxymoron, you can't be living better if you live in ignorance no matter what amount of material wealth you pile up. Of course adopting this as a belief system also requires abandoning any claims on victimhood.
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    Black in America

    Two white guys who don't live in the US dominating a thread about the nature of being Black in America is just a little bit amusing. Using Twitter feeds as proof points after the co-opting of social media platforms for massive disinformation campaigns in the past few years even more so.
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    Just Another Restaurant Mass Murder By Gun

    "The very first step in nonviolence is that we cultivate in our daily life, as between ourselves, truthfulness, humility, tolerance, loving kindness."
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    Just Another Restaurant Mass Murder By Gun

    That is an easy one. No. Force or threat of force is used by bad actors (<5% of the population) to take advantage of others, and by the rest of the population in order to dissuade the bad actors from same. In no way is it the foundation of human relationships, it is an unfortunate artifact of the existence of bad actors and the limitations of alternate tools available to society. One side of that equation is beginning to change, and so we are likely to see the devaluing of violence or force and the threats of it. As it is devalued, we will see less of it, even from bad actors.
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    Just Another Restaurant Mass Murder By Gun

    I am not sure you can reliably translate ammo to hours. In my past life (18 months ago), I could go through 200 rounds of ammo target shooting with a pistol in a single hour, but when hunting could spend 40 hours without firing a single shot. Tough to put together an accurate model, and since nobody is paying me for it.....
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    Just Another Restaurant Mass Murder By Gun

    My WAG on the second question for PA would be somewhere between 6-10 million to one. No idea where to get enough data to form even a WAG on the first one, but it would certainly be much higher, although I guess that would depend on how one defines "use". I suppose one could make an argument that a gun kept in the home for self defense is technically in use 24x365, I did not make that argument. I only figured in hunters and target shooters actively engaged in their hobby. In both cases, cars and guns, the use of the item in a homicide would be a teensy tiny sliver compared to the legal uses.
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    What is a Libertarian?

    Those dark patches are where the value prop is highest. Look at where the highest proportion of unbanked are: http://www.businessinsider.com/the-worlds-unbanked-population-in-6-charts-2017-8 Those folks in the dark patches would only need a cell phone to gain access to banking and legal systems which they have no access to now.
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    What is a Libertarian?

    75% is a lot, and I wonder if they are not excluding some folks with Internet access via mobile device in that number. Still, even if the 75% is accurate our literacy rate is only 90% , and I suspect that if mobile devices are included the number would be very close to the literacy rate.