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I posted here a few months ago that I have an as yet unidentified neurological condition that is really impacting my my physical condition and my life and is getting rapidly worse.  Well now I am getting some very disturbing symptoms in my brain.  Among other things, I forget things I did a few moments ago, I get aphasia, that is I can't remember common words when I talk, and this morning I went from one room to another and I couldn't figure out how I got in the other room, I thought I was still in the same room.  Quite honestly that is scaring the shit out of me, as it would anyone.  I am experiencing periodic mood swings and I have very labile emotions, I am happy one moment and will cry at the drop of a pin the next moment, and it is totally out of my normally tight control of my emotions.

So I want to apologize in advance if I stay something totally outlandish, stupid or angry (at least more than my usual amount of those posts), because it may not be the real me. I will try to re-read my posts to make sure they make sense and I will probably catch most of them, but I just can't be totally sure.

I am a very strong person mentally, and I think I am coping with this better than most, but it isn't easy and it sure does suck.  I don't think the prognosis will be anything but bleak, given the rapid increase in the existing and new symptoms.  But I don't have to like it, I just have to deal with it as best I can, until I can't anymore.

I am not asking for pity or anything, I am incredibly optimistic most of the time, but still a realist.  I just want y'all to know what's going on. 

And rest assured that I won't intentionally use it as an excuse to tear into you assholes and blame it on my condition, because I know some of you are already thinking that.  :lol:

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Sorry to hear that Ed. Have you got good options for analysis of it?

Everything about getting old sucks except the wisdom you acquire. For what it's worth, we all have those memory symptoms. :D I can remember things I did on a date 45 years ago but not what my wife sent me into the next room to get.

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if you read the warning lable

sounds like side effects of PA  :-O

farr from laughing matter, hope something simple is discovered and this is turned around

before you start posting about how Great and fair you were as a mod :o

till then there is hope :lol::lol:

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46 minutes ago, SloopJonB said:

Sorry to hear that Ed. Have you got good options for analysis of it?

Everything about getting old sucks except the wisdom you acquire. For what it's worth, we all have those memory symptoms. :D I can remember things I did on a date 45 years ago but not what my wife sent me into the next room to get.

I have been poked, prodded, electrocuted, injected and inspected in a most thorough manner on several occasions by very thorough German doctors that know what they are doing.  I have had repeated CT scans, MRIs, and just about every other letter of the alphabet, including vowels that could have been put to better use in Poland for all the good it did me. Have you ever had a 3 inch needle slipped all the way down inside the side of your tongue and other muscles, and then had an electrical current run through it?  I often think some of these tests were developed in the camps in Nazi Germany.  My latest symptoms are far beyond the normal mild dementia that all people our age begin to experience.  I am currently in the US and I am looking into being examined by doctors here and letting them further torture me in an attempt to find a cause and possible treatments, and I might extend my stay here to explore said options.  I am an optimist, as I stated above, but I have significant medical and behavioral science experience and I am not too optimistic about anything getting better.  I re-read my post above at least 3 times and maybe more, I can't remember, and after I posted the original post, I still had to hit the edit button 3 times and make more corrections.

 

Edit:  I just remembered my most favorite neuro exam. I sat in an ordinary chair, they strapped an electrode to each ankle placed a large, fat pillow in my lap.  I looked at them questioningly when they gave me the pillow and they replied, "Don't worry you'll need it".  Then the doctor placed a paddle on the top of my head and said "Vorsicht!" (German for "caution!"), and when the electric jolt coursed through my body I convulsed so violently that I almost squeezed the pillow flat.  They apologized to me and then they did it several more times.  I told them if I promised not to scream, would they give me ice cream when they were done and they laughed and assured me they would.  I refrained from screaming each time and I got my ice cream!  :lol: I can assure you that that kind of thing can really make you sweat.  I really wanted to ask the doctor if he had any Mengeles in his family tree but I figured that would be crossing a line, so I wisely refrained from mentioning it.  There are some things you just shouldn't do in Germany.  I certainly developed an appreciation for why they don't use the electric chair anymore for executions.  I wouldn't do that to Happy Jack or even Dabs.

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That sounds fucking awful, I’m not from a medical background in anyway. Apart from dealing with emergency physical trauma. 

You have my sincerest sympathies. 

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13 minutes ago, Ed Lada said:

I have been poked, prodded, electrocuted, injected and inspected in a most thorough manner on several occasions by very thorough German doctors that know what they are doing.  I have had repeated CT scans, MRIs, and just about every other letter of the alphabet, including vowels that could have been put to better use in Poland for all the good it did me. Have you ever had a 3 inch needle slipped all the way down inside the side of your tongue and other muscles, and then had an electrical current run through it?  I often think some of these tests were developed in the camps in Nazi Germany.  My latest symptoms are far beyond the normal mild dementia that all people our age begin to experience.  I am currently in the US and I am looking into being examined by doctors here and letting them further torture me in an attempt to find a cause and possible treatments, and I might extend my stay here to explore said options.  I am an optimist, as I stated above, but I have significant medical and behavioral science experience and I am not too optimistic about anything getting better.  I re-read my post above at least 3 times and maybe more, I can't remember, and after I posted the original post, I still had to hit the edit button 3 times and make more corrections.

Big hug..big dude...

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16 minutes ago, mad said:

That sounds fucking awful, I’m not from a medical background in anyway. Apart from dealing with emergency physical trauma. 

You have my sincerest sympathies. 

Thanks Mad.  

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12 minutes ago, SailBlueH2O said:

Big hug..big dude...

Thanks man, I really appreciate that.

Now can we go back to insulting each other, I am starting to squirm a little with embarrassment.   ;)

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8 minutes ago, Ed Lada said:

Thanks man, I really appreciate that.

Now can we go back to insulting each other, I am starting to squirm a little with embarrassment.   ;)

Well it seems you'll forget it soon enough...

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3 minutes ago, SailBlueH2O said:

Well it seems you'll forget it soon enough...

:lol::lol:  True, one of the positives of my problems is I will constantly be meeting many wonderful new people because I won't remember them from prior meetings!  Always look on the bright side, right?

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Best wishes.  Scary stuff.   If they’ve ruled out the usual CNS and infectious diseases (Lyme, Syphilis) maybe non CNS disease like Addisons and menopause need to be considered.   Specialists have trouble seeing outside of their self imposed boxes.    

Polamania no’g 

 

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Dang Ed.....at least start posting pics of the following;

Hot Polish girls we've heard about. 

Food (w/recipes).

How of all the vowels we've been shipping over for awhile now are being utilized!

B)

 

 

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10 minutes ago, Lark said:

Best wishes.  Scary stuff.   If they’ve ruled out the usual CNS and infectious diseases (Lyme, Syphilis) maybe non CNS disease like Addisons and menopause need to be considered.   Specialists have trouble seeing outside of their self imposed boxes.    

Polamania no’g 

 

Thanks Lark.  I have been pretty well explored but I am still seeking other opinions, we'll see.  Neurological conditions are devilishly hard to diagnose, they probably don't find a cause more often than they actually do.  Often the stock answer is "It sucks to be you but we just can't explain why you are fucked, except that you are." 

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5 minutes ago, hobot said:

Dang Ed.....at least start posting pics of the following;

Hot Polish girls we've heard about. 

Food (w/recipes).

How of all the vowels we've been shipping over for awhile now are being utilized!

B)

 

 

Thanks Hobot.  I'll see what I can do about the hotties and the food.  How do you feel about duck blood soup? The Polish kids send their eternal gratitude for the vowels.  When they get their package of shiny new vowels, the look on their faces makes me forget all of my troubles and renews my tattered faith in mankind!  Every A, E, I, O, U, and sometimes Y helps.

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5 minutes ago, Ed Lada said:

Thanks Lark.  I have been pretty well explored but I am still seeking other opinions, we'll see.  Neurological conditions are devilishly hard to diagnose, they probably don't find a cause more often than they actually do.  Often the stock answer is "It sucks to be you but we just can't explain why you are fucked, except that you are." 

“If our brains were simple enough for us to understand them, we’d be so simple we couldn’t.”    

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46 minutes ago, Ed Lada said:

:lol::lol:  True, one of the positives of my problems is I will constantly be meeting many wonderful new people because I won't remember them from prior meetings!  Always look on the bright side, right?

Look on the bright side. No more chasing new women, it’ll be a new conquest every time. :P 

And you have a good excuse for getting the wrong name. ;)

Edit to add. 

I see you’ve already beaten me to that subject 

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8 minutes ago, mad said:

Look on the bright side. No more chasing new women, it’ll be a new conquest every time. :P 

And you have a good excuse for getting the wrong name. ;)

I do have an abundance of riches!

Of course you would know better than most that you CAN make a silk purse from a sow's ear, if you just try hard enough.

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Sorry to hear about your troubles, Ed. Hopefully they find something that will ameliorate, if not cure, the issues. Sounds like the exams are not fun at all.

Maybe some time exploring alternate remedies in Colorado or Washington state would help.

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To paraphrase Miss Piggy doing car advice: "It sounds to me like your brain is broken.  If you're going to need it soon, I'd suggest having it fixed."

Good luck, mate.  Some things are just random and strange, and defy 'normal' diagnosis. But willpower is a vital and often underlooked attribute that can steer you through.  You have loads of that.

 

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Eddie

I'm thinking you need to go fishing. That always makes things better. 

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1 minute ago, Dorado said:

Eddie

I'm thinking you need to go fishing. That always makes things better. 

portugal-one-time-whalers-azore-boat-the

"What the fuck am I doing here? What's that thing? What's this thing?"

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30 minutes ago, Ishmael said:

Sorry to hear about your troubles, Ed. Hopefully they find something that will ameliorate, if not cure, the issues. Sounds like the exams are not fun at all.

Maybe some time exploring alternate remedies in Colorado or Washington state would help.

Thanks Ish.  I have explored some alternate treatments they ease the burden somewhat, but I doubt they will change much.

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8 minutes ago, P_Wop said:

To paraphrase Miss Piggy doing car advice: "It sounds to me like your brain is broken.  If you're going to need it soon, I'd suggest having it fixed."

Good luck, mate.  Some things are just random and strange, and defy 'normal' diagnosis. But willpower is a vital and often underlooked attribute that can steer you through.  You have loads of that.

 

Thanks.  I am half Polish and Polish people are survivors.  To be descended from people that have made it through a thousand years of virtually every country in Europe and a few in Asia, to eradicate them, and still exist means I have some pretty strong genes in me.  I guess us Poles are the cockroaches of Europe, we just won't quit.

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8 minutes ago, Dorado said:

Eddie

I'm thinking you need to go fishing. That always makes things better. 

I'm thinking the same thing.  Since I am currently about 1/2 mile from Lake Erie, I see a fishing trip in the near future.  Having grown up on the Lake shore, it is my happy place and just seeing the water makes me feel good.  A couple of nice big, chubby Walleyes just makes it even better.

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3 hours ago, Ed Lada said:

Thanks Lark.  I have been pretty well explored but I am still seeking other opinions, we'll see.  Neurological conditions are devilishly hard to diagnose, they probably don't find a cause more often than they actually do.  Often the stock answer is "It sucks to be you but we just can't explain why you are fucked, except that you are." 

Reminds me of a Doctor my wife went to about one of her problems. He had done his poking around and we were discussing things when he said "Well, you've got to realize that your body is fucked".

I immediately liked the guy. :D

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48 minutes ago, Ed Lada said:

Thanks Ish.  I have explored some alternate treatments they ease the burden somewhat, but I doubt they will change much.

A girl I went to school with became a surgical nurse and decided when she got too old & tired & ill & sick & stupid to do anything she'd just get strung out on opium and fade away.

Struck me as a pretty fair option - like the old lady that the kids were afraid of in "To kill a mockingbird"

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Ed

Sorry to hear this news. Seems getting old starts with a Doctor telling a very young you that “you’ll have to live with this” for something that’s really not a big deal to “We’ll need to manage this chronic condition” and to “this might be it.”  

I can empathize with you and appreciate your frank acceptance that this might be a big deal and your humor in communicating it. 

My only advice is once you have a diagnosis seek out the best specialist you can find as you explore treatment options. I don’t have to tell you how important it is. 

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Ed, as your foil and nemesis at times, you have my utmost support in this challenge. My brother exhibits most, if not all the symptoms you describe. He is ten years my senior and frankly, I suspect I am going down the same path. He is on all sorts of experimental drugs but his cognition and recall are shot.... last time we had a family get together to bury Mom, he had to ask our sister what her name was! I am not sure who was more "moved" by this.

I wish you well and hope you find a solution. Getting old sucks eh?

So I turned 60 not too far back. On my birthday the wife had put a new electric toothbrush in the mug next to the sink. Nice piece of equipment, as toothbrushes go. So I take her for a spin. Up, down, in, out, left, right, front, back....you all know the routine. I rinse, spit, repeat and wash the remaining out of the toothbrush.... go to turn it off and I keep pushing the f'in off button but nothing seems to happen....... then I realized I never turned the damn thing on in the first place. So I smiled at the guy in the mirror and said, "Welcome to the big Six-O."

As Mom always used to say, "when I get old, take me out in a field and shoot me." She made it to 93!

 

Anyhow, best wishes ED. I hope you find some answers. Godspeed.

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1 hour ago, Ed Lada said:

Thanks.  I am half Polish and Polish people are survivors.  To be descended from people that have made it through a thousand years of virtually every country in Europe and a few in Asia, to eradicate them, and still exist means I have some pretty strong genes in me.  I guess us Poles are the cockroaches of Europe, we just won't quit.

 

Best of luck with your diagnosis Ed!!  Yes, the Polish people are very strong, and hopefully your genes, and life experiences and true grit will get you through this!!

I had several weird illnesses over the years, that were very fortunately diagnosed very quickly, and dealt with. I hope the same for you, M8!!

 

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Sorry to hear this, Ed

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20 minutes ago, SloopJonB said:

A girl I went to school with became a surgical nurse and decided when she got too old & tired & ill & sick & stupid to do anything she'd just get strung out on opium and fade away.

Struck me as a pretty fair option - like the old lady that the kids were afraid of in "To kill a mockingbird"

I know a shit ton of doctors here, including my best friend.  If necessary, I have 'options'.

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11 minutes ago, Innocent Bystander said:

Ed

Sorry to hear this news. Seems getting old starts with a Doctor telling a very young you that “you’ll have to live with this” for something that’s really not a big deal to “We’ll need to manage this chronic condition” and to “this might be it.”  

I can empathize with you and appreciate your frank acceptance that this might be a big deal and your humor in communicating it. 

My only advice is once you have a diagnosis seek out the best specialist you can find as you explore treatment options. I don’t have to tell you how important it is. 

Thanks IB. I have worked in jobs where dealing with chaos, destruction and death weren't unusual.  That experience helps you understand that life is short and often ugly.  It also helps you to develop a black sense of humor to help you cope.  I feel that I can just sit around and be depressed and angry and then I'll just be a depressed and angry person with some serious health issues.  I would rather be a happy person with a few more problems than some and less than others. For example if the doctor says that it isn't so bad yet but I might not want to buy any more green bananas or buy young wines, then I will be happy.  Why?  Because then I can plan on having some closure, making apologies, saying goodbye, etc.  Not everyone gets a warning and leaving people hanging can be traumatic to those left behind. I have had to console parents that unexpectedly lost a child to an accident or suicide.  They never had a chance to say goodbye, to tell them one last time that they loved them. That's not fun at all.   To me, my attitude isn't isn't morbid or pessimistic, it certainly doesn't change the future, it's just practical.  It's all about how you frame it.  That works for me, we all need to find what works for our personalities, there are many appropriate options.

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24 minutes ago, billy backstay said:

 

Best of luck with your diagnosis Ed!!  Yes, the Polish people are very strong, and hopefully your genes, and life experiences and true grit will get you through this!!

I had several weird illnesses over the years, that were very fortunately diagnosed very quickly, and dealt with. I hope the same for you, M8!!

 

Thanks Billy, I can certainly hope.

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24 minutes ago, Cruisin Loser said:

Sorry to hear this, Ed

Thanks for the kind words CL!

 

30 minutes ago, BillDBastard said:

Ed, as your foil and nemesis at times, you have my utmost support in this challenge. My brother exhibits most, if not all the symptoms you describe. He is ten years my senior and frankly, I suspect I am going down the same path. He is on all sorts of experimental drugs but his cognition and recall are shot.... last time we had a family get together to bury Mom, he had to ask our sister what her name was! I am not sure who was more "moved" by this.

I wish you well and hope you find a solution. Getting old sucks eh?

So I turned 60 not too far back. On my birthday the wife had put a new electric toothbrush in the mug next to the sink. Nice piece of equipment, as toothbrushes go. So I take her for a spin. Up, down, in, out, left, right, front, back....you all know the routine. I rinse, spit, repeat and wash the remaining out of the toothbrush.... go to turn it off and I keep pushing the f'in off button but nothing seems to happen....... then I realized I never turned the damn thing on in the first place. So I smiled at the guy in the mirror and said, "Welcome to the big Six-O."

As Mom always used to say, "when I get old, take me out in a field and shoot me." She made it to 93!

 

Anyhow, best wishes ED. I hope you find some answers. Godspeed.

Thanks Bill, sorry to hear about your brother.  I think we would all rather lose all of our physical abilities than our minds, but we don't often get a choice.  So we just muddle through the best we can.  I have no family history of such things, but I guess it has to start somewhere, eh?  Good thing for your mom that you were always a lousy marksman!

By the way, no matter what happens to either one of us, I will always think of you as a Bastard!   :rolleyes:

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Lyme disease is not only in the N.E. USA...... Nor is Leishmaniasis only secluded in the sands of the middle east......

I had similar symptoms, (Still do) and at the time I was told I had ALS or MS (Both proved wrong.) Then it was Parkinson's (Wrong)....

Neurologists are among the most humorless, and self satisfied Dr's I've ever encountered, and not one of them wanted to hear my opinion.

Get the opinion of several Drs, and please check out an oncologist. They seem to have the best grip on things..... (IMHOP)

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Ed;

Sorry to hear of your troubles, and while I can't offer anything except whatever you need let us know and we will try to find a way.  If you are every down in the Southern Chesapeake, you got a meal a beer and a bed while you visit.  I picked out a special clip for you.

 

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I think we've all reached the point where you eat the best banana of the bunch instead of the ripest.

You never know  . . .

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3 hours ago, Ed Lada said:

I'm thinking the same thing.  Since I am currently about 1/2 mile from Lake Erie, I see a fishing trip in the near future.  Having grown up on the Lake shore, it is my happy place and just seeing the water makes me feel good.  A couple of nice big, chubby Walleyes just makes it even better.

Watch the dorsal fin spines on those Walleye..... They'll poke a hole in you and leave the quill.....

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Well, shit. Ed I am very sorry to hear about this, and hope for good news for you.

I wish I had really good advice, or some special insider knowledge. Sincere sympathy and best wishes

-DSK

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38 minutes ago, Mrleft8 said:

Watch the dorsal fin spines on those Walleye..... They'll poke a hole in you and leave the quill.....

That's why you have crash scissors in the tackle box.

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Feel better.

Oddly, your memory lapse stuff kinda describes most of my life.

THC, magnesium citrate and selenium might help? And if it doesn't, at least you can blame the memory loss on that.

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I sorta figure if I can still 'adequately preform' then life aint so bad. Of course,  finding someone to preform with is another story.

But then, I  aint surrounded by eastern european hotties.....

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1 hour ago, Mrleft8 said:

Watch the dorsal fin spines on those Walleye..... They'll poke a hole in you and leave the quill.....

They will indeed and I have carefully handled many a Walleye back when I lived here without too much harm to my self.  One time on Padre Island in Texas, I stepped on the dorsal fin of a kind of catfish that had washed ashore.  The bone pulled out of the fish because it had barbs on it and it was embedded at least a half inch into the bottom of my foot.  That hurt and I had to go to the ER to get it removed.  I will never forget the sound that was made when the ER doc braced one foot on the exam table and with a large pair of hemostats he ripped the bone out of my foot after first giving me some lidocaine to numb me first thank goodness.  I still have the bone in my jewelry box back home, the dried blood is still visible as far up as the bone was embedded in my foot.

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1 hour ago, Mrleft8 said:

Lyme disease is not only in the N.E. USA...... Nor is Leishmaniasis only secluded in the sands of the middle east......

I had similar symptoms, (Still do) and at the time I was told I had ALS or MS (Both proved wrong.) Then it was Parkinson's (Wrong)....

Neurologists are among the most humorless, and self satisfied Dr's I've ever encountered, and not one of them wanted to hear my opinion.

Get the opinion of several Drs, and please check out an oncologist. They seem to have the best grip on things..... (IMHOP)

They have Lyme's here, they use the medical name, borrelosis.  I have been tested for it several times, as I had a a tick embedded in me for some time and discovered it long after it had died because it was embedded in my back along my belt line and I couldn't see it.  This was a few years ago.

If you want humorless docs, try German ones although some of them have warmed up to me because I do have some medical knowledge and a lot of my friends here are Polish and German doctors and that helps too.  The medical community here isn't large and a lot of them know each other so I have that advantage, I can name drop!

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50 minutes ago, Steam Flyer said:

Well, shit. Ed I am very sorry to hear about this, and hope for good news for you.

I wish I had really good advice, or some special insider knowledge. Sincere sympathy and best wishes

-DSK

Thanks, your support is enough!

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30 minutes ago, mikewof said:

Feel better.

Oddly, your memory lapse stuff kinda describes most of my life.

THC, magnesium citrate and selenium might help? And if it doesn't, at least you can blame the memory loss on that.

Sure, laxatives are the answer to many of life's problems!   Purge the system, I wish we could do that in Washington D.C.

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30 minutes ago, Autonomous said:

Positive thoughts sent.

Thanks!  Every bit helps.

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23 minutes ago, ease the sheet said:

I sorta figure if I can still 'adequately preform' then life aint so bad. Of course,  finding someone to preform with is another story.

But then, I  aint surrounded by eastern european hotties.....

I can guarantee that a young Polish hottie is one hell of an aphrodisiac, and a great comfort, especially at my age.  Come on over and I can make some introductions...  :D

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8 hours ago, Ed Lada said:

I posted here a few months ago that I have an as yet unidentified neurological condition that is really impacting my my physical condition and my life and is getting rapidly worse.  Well now I am getting some very disturbing symptoms in my brain.  Among other things, I forget things I did a few moments ago, I get aphasia, that is I can't remember common words when I talk, and this morning I went from one room to another and I couldn't figure out how I got in the other room, I thought I was still in the same room.  Quite honestly that is scaring the shit out of me, as it would anyone.  I am experiencing periodic mood swings and I have very labile emotions, I am happy one moment and will cry at the drop of a pin the next moment, and it is totally out of my normally tight control of my emotions.

So I want to apologize in advance if I stay something totally outlandish, stupid or angry (at least more than my usual amount of those posts), because it may not be the real me. I will try to re-read my posts to make sure they make sense and I will probably catch most of them, but I just can't be totally sure.

I am a very strong person mentally, and I think I am coping with this better than most, but it isn't easy and it sure does suck.  I don't think the prognosis will be anything but bleak, given the rapid increase in the existing and new symptoms.  But I don't have to like it, I just have to deal with it as best I can, until I can't anymore.

I am not asking for pity or anything, I am incredibly optimistic most of the time, but still a realist.  I just want y'all to know what's going on. 

And rest assured that I won't intentionally use it as an excuse to tear into you assholes and blame it on my condition, because I know some of you are already thinking that.  :lol:

I get those same symptoms.......

But it's from one of these..

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Not making light, just sayin'

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2 hours ago, Ed Lada said:

Sure, laxatives are the answer to many of life's problems!   Purge the system, I wish we could do that in Washington D.C.

Boris Tomashefsky, one of the great stars of the Yiddish theater, is making a great dramatic comeback late in his career. Nearing 70 years old, he decided he will do a run as King Lear, translated entirely into Yiddish. The play is a huge success and moments before the curtain is to rise for the packed house on the last night of the play's run, he drops dead of a heart attack in his dressing room. The producer, director, stage manager and theater manager don't know what to do. Do they cancel in his honor? Do they go on with an understudy? They decide that since it was to be Boris' final performance, they would make an announcement to the audience, offer refunds and start planning the memorial service.

So, while the director contacts the widow to break the sad news, the theater manager steps in front of the curtain. "Ladies and Gentleman," he announces. "I'm sorry to announce that tonight's performance will not go on as planned. Minutes ago, Boris Tomashefsky, possibly the finest theatrical actor of our generation, passed away." A hushed aw sweeps over the audience, followed by concerned murmur. Then, from the middle of the theater a tiny, shriveled, ancient woman stands up, and with the loudest voice she can muster belts out, "GIVE HIM AN ENEMA!"  

The audience once again goes silent, no one knowing how to react. "Ma'am, maybe you did not hear me before, Boris is not incapacitated or unwell, he is dead." the theater manager choked out. Still standing, the old woman repeats, "GIVE HIM AN ENEMA!" 

The theater manager, not sure if she is meshugana or merely playing a sick joke looses all patience. "Look, lady, Boris has dropped dead. Of a heart attack. He is gone, and nothing will bring him back to us. Nothing is gonna help, least of all an enema." "Ah!" the lady yells, "It may not help, but it couldn't hurt!"

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hang in there and keep meeting new (old) friends!

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Edmund, that totally sucks balls!  Seriously wishing you the best.  In the meantime, while you search for answers - may I suggest you take this time to drink even MORE fine red wine and bang as many hot barely legal polish women as you can.  

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Are you up for some man hugs?

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40 minutes ago, Shootist Jeff said:

Edmund, that totally sucks balls!  Seriously wishing you the best.  In the meantime, while you search for answers - may I suggest you take this time to drink even MORE fine red wine and bang as many hot barely legal polish women as you can.  

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Are you up for some man hugs?

I am doing exactly what you recommended.  

Thanks, but I'm OK on the hugs, but I appreciate the thought.  

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Thanks for all the well wishes and thoughts to y'all and keep the jokes coming.  I am sitting here laughing my ass off!  I knew some really good jokes that would fit the situation but I can't recall them at the moment.  :lol:

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9 hours ago, Ed Lada said:

Sure, laxatives are the answer to many of life's problems!   Purge the system, I wish we could do that in Washington D.C.

They do relax the colon in large amounts, but I find that the Mag-Citrate and Selenium in small daily amounts (I use a powder called Natural Calm) seems to help some of my minor neurological stresses, I find that it's really noticeable.

As for the THC, I wasn't allowed any until recently, because I was a federal contractor, but now I'm not, so it's legal for me. When I was a kid, it created the symptoms you describe, now, low-dose edibles seem to paradoxically help them. No idea why, I'm just happy for the improved focus and that the nerve tics are gone.

Again though, my symptoms are very mild compared to your's, it seems.

Feel well.

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6 minutes ago, mikewof said:

They do relax the colon in large amounts, but I find that the Mag-Citrate and Selenium in small daily amounts (I use a powder called Natural Calm) seems to help some of my minor neurological stresses, I find that it's really noticeable.

As for the THC, I wasn't allowed any until recently, because I was a federal contractor, but now I'm not, so it's legal for me. When I was a kid, it created the symptoms you describe, now, low-dose edibles seem to paradoxically help them. No idea why, I'm just happy for the improved focus and that the nerve tics are gone.

Again though, my symptoms are very mild compared to your's, it seems.

Feel well.

THC doesn't seem to do much of anything either way, but it does distract me and that helps anyway, and I'm from the hippie generation, so it's like comfort food.  ;)

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Ed,

 

I have no wisdom or knowledge that can help you but I can, and do, sympathise.

Keep the sunny/moaning/angry/ stubborn side out and never give in.

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have you tried turning it off and on again? Sorry, it's all i know how to do to fix shit... 

 

good luck. 

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28 minutes ago, mustang__1 said:

have you tried turning it off and on again? Sorry, it's all i know how to do to fix shit... 

 

good luck. 

Thanks.  Probably this is all due to my excessive height, be thankful you are short!  :P

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2 hours ago, Black Sox said:

Ed,

 

I have no wisdom or knowledge that can help you but I can, and do, sympathise.

Keep the sunny/moaning/angry/ stubborn side out and never give in.

Thanks, I intend to do exactly what you said.  You can't keep a good man down, not for long anyway.  

How I often view my life:

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Ed, hope they can find an answer to your questions. As a medical person I am sure it is frustrating to you. Hang in there!

After I turned 60 (65 now), I have noticed I have to concentrate more on what I am doing and my plans for the day. I used to have a funny short tale about "Age Activated Attention Deficit Disorder".  I feel like that sometimes.

I watch my 88 yo dad. After four years of losing my mom, two broken hips, hospital stays and drugs, he has really declined. We joke about it. When he forgets what he was talking about, he would joke that he ran aground. I would tell him to kedge off and start again.

Best of luck to you Ed.

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10 minutes ago, Great White said:

Ed, hope they can find an answer to your questions. As a medical person I am sure it is frustrating to you. Hang in there!

After I turned 60 (65 now), I have noticed I have to concentrate more on what I am doing and my plans for the day. I used to have a funny short tale about "Age Activated Attention Deficit Disorder".  I feel like that sometimes.

I watch my 88 yo dad. After four years of losing my mom, two broken hips, hospital stays and drugs, he has really declined. We joke about it. When he forgets what he was talking about, he would joke that he ran aground. I would tell him to kedge off and start again.

Best of luck to you Ed.

Thanks.  We all struggle in life, the key is to work with what we have and do the best we can with it.  Lately I find myself  'running aground' far too often. The effort to focus and concentrate is tiring at times.  My mother died at age 60, far to early,  from the same type of brain tumor that John McCain has.  At age 62 I have outlived my mother anyway and I just consider each extra year as a bonus.  My dad wore out after a healthy active life.  He skied and rode a Harley until he was 79.  He was an independent guy and wanted to live by himself but unfortunately he had some dementia develop and he became malnourished and vulnerable to many opportunistic illnesses in his weakened condition. He was almost 81 when he died and had a long and active life, so all in all not too bad.

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OK...most of the time I can't restrain myself from being a smart ass provocateur ...so don't take this as being a smart ass....just a message to ponder on the upside~~~

 

 

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23 hours ago, Ed Lada said:

:lol::lol:  True, one of the positives of my problems is I will constantly be meeting many wonderful new people because I won't remember them from prior meetings!  Always look on the bright side, right?

. . .and you can hide your own Easter Eggs.  Perhaps your BSC* is low?  The only thing I've ever experienced like that were severe migraine symptoms without the headache.  50% of my visual field would go black, and I would then know why I couldn't talk and my hamstrings were stiff. . .

 

*Blood Sauerkraut Concentration.

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Ed I have done some research on yer bee1/2

This is what I found and by no surprise just might be what Ailes ya (they are close to driving me crazy 4 sure)

Friendly Racoon Sniffs Out Photographer  - Dec 2011  

A raccoon: like the Argentinian parrots, they were introduced to Europe as pets. Photograph: Luke Massey / Rex Features

Madrid has declared war on invaders that threaten the peace of mind of the Spanish capital's human residents and the survival of native species of birds and animals. The city is to begin a cull of the American raccoons and Argentinian green parrots whose populations are reaching plague proportions.

Both creatures were introduced to Europe as pets and raccoons were sold in pet shops as recently as 2011. Those which escaped or were abandoned have proliferated rapidly. Raccoons were first seen in the area in the early 1970s while the parrots date from the mid-1980s.

As the parrots live on average for around 10 years, each breeding pair can produce as many as 50 chicks in their lifetime. They build precarious nests in trees and live in large, raucous colonies. The parrots feed on newly-seeded lawns and drive out local bird species, but the main objection to them is noise. Madrid's once peaceful Buen Retiro park is now filled with the squawking of hundreds of parrots.

The raccoons are also a health hazard as some carry rabies and a parasite (Baylisascaris procyonis) that attacks the human nervous system. They have no predators, but prey on a range of creatures, as well as eating birds' eggs. They eat everything, from the young of protected species to rubbish.

Although the city has authorised "the capture and death of any specimen" the cull is not a call to arms, however, and the city doesn't want people to form anti-raccoon militias. Nor will it use poison, but plans to trap and kill the animals. The parrots will be caught in nets and their nests destroyed. "It is not too late to control this population explosion," said Felipe Ruza, deputy director of environmental conservation for the Madrid area.

 

To try and help you to kick that Fucking whatever it is you have

I Shall Sacrifice 3 FUCKING Raccoons in Your Honor ASAP

If it works Please Post Polish Womenz Titty PIX (Please None w a Polish Sausage)

Hay it's worth a try ...eh B)

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22 hours ago, Ishmael said:

Sorry to hear about your troubles, Ed. Hopefully they find something that will ameliorate, if not cure, the issues. Sounds like the exams are not fun at all.

Maybe some time exploring alternate remedies in Colorado or Washington state would help.

Here has a few other options these days

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CBD might be what ya need (well along with Offing the FUCKING Raccoons)

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5 hours ago, DA-WOODY said:

CBD might be what ya need (well along with Offing the FUCKING Raccoons)

Been trying THC, it's useless but fun, brings back memories of my youth.  I'm looking into CBD, it is pretty easy to get in Europe.  My B12 is OK.  And no Woody, I just won't fuck a raccoon, no matter how good you say it is!   :P

 

 

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7 hours ago, nacradriver said:

Here has a few other options these days

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For the last time, I live in the country Poland, not Poland, ME, not Poland, OH, I live in Poland , Europe!!  Sheesh, what do they teach in colleges these days.

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7 hours ago, Sol Rosenberg said:

So much bad news of late.  Very sorry to learn of yours, Ed.  

Thanks Sol.  

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Let me add my best wishes as well Ed and I think I might get some tests done too. Sometimes stuff comes out of my mouth that I have no ability to control as well.

Randumb is a retarded dick wit.

fuck! There it goes again!

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58 minutes ago, LB 15 said:

Let me add my best wishes as well Ed and I think I might get some tests done too. Sometimes stuff comes out of my mouth that I have no ability to control as well.

Randumb is a retarded dick wit.

fuck! There it goes again!

Fuck I love this place!  Thanks.

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Yep, I was going to suggest this as a remedy, getting stoned to the Bejesus.....

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CANNON BALL!

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7 hours ago, LB 15 said:

Let me add my best wishes as well Ed and I think I might get some tests done too. Sometimes stuff comes out of my mouth that I have no ability to control as well.

Randumb is a retarded dick wit.

fuck! There it goes again!

You don't need tests; you have Social Tourettes, which simply means that you say out loud what everyone else only thinks.

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2 hours ago, Grabbler said:

Sorry to hear Ed, maybe it's time to try some of this stuff, order the green version...

https://www.soylent.com/product/drink/

Seriously, which moron named this product???

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One with a sense of humour.

They should have a green label though.

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2 hours ago, Grabbler said:

Sorry to hear Ed, maybe it's time to try some of this stuff, order the green version...

https://www.soylent.com/product/drink/

Seriously, which moron named this product???

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Soylent Green is people!!!      :o

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Nuts Ed - I wouldn't wish something like this on ya in a million years.  I hope you can stop thinkin' about it long enough to consume yourself with enjoying those new grandbabies! 

 

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6 hours ago, Black Sox said:
14 hours ago, LB 15 said:

Let me add my best wishes as well Ed and I think I might get some tests done too. Sometimes stuff comes out of my mouth that I have no ability to control as well.

Randumb is a retarded dick wit.

fuck! There it goes again!

You don't need tests; you have Social Tourettes, which simply means that you say out loud what everyone else only thinks.

Fuck I love this place

-DSK

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I so wanted to find a Grateful Dead song for your post........this is the closest I could find. :lol: If you watch it through, you can see why. 

 

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7 minutes ago, Point Break said:

I so wanted to find a Grateful Dead song for your post........

Butte Eddey is the tokken Bruce fann..................... I see what didde theire.....                  :)

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Or......this one....by some dead guys and some live guys. Always liked the words here as well........

 

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1 minute ago, Snaggletooth said:

Butte Eddey is the tokken Bruce fann..................... I see what didde theire.....                  :)

Shhhhhhhhhh. Maybe he won’t notice...........

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I'm really sorry to hear this Ed. 

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