Does anyone else suffer from severe anxiety leading up to launch day?
I belong to a club that runs on volunteer committees. (Gatekeeper’s club is similar, I think, based on previous discussions.) So for haul out & launch, we bring in a couple of cranes and everyone pitches in to move 40+ boats from land to sea, or vise-versa.
That part doesn’t bother me at all, and in fact, I find the camaraderie during such a big event quite enjoyable.
What I get anxious about is being “that guy” when it’s my turn. The one that holds up the flow or does something completely boneheaded or ends up causing damage to someone else’s’ boat. I’m also very anxious about being completely prepared, despite having a check-list that is nearly 100% complete.
We launch this coming Saturday, and I’ve been bolting awake at 3 – 4 AM the last few days panicking about little things like having the correct clevis & cotter pins for the standing rigging or worried that I won’t get the motor started.
What’s completely dumb is that I know that such worries are irrational. Last year, I and 2 others needed to get towed out of the launch area due to engine issues. No biggie. That’s what the work-boat and its crew are for.
But it’s difficult to be rational when you’re asleep. I only have another week’s worth of insomnia and panic attacks to suffer through. Saturday night I’ll sleep like a baby. I am getting better however. The last two years, I had insomnia and panic for a month prior to launch.