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#3101 tq2000

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Posted 13 December 2012 - 07:16 PM

Fuck cancer. I just got a call from my brother, and it looks like my sister in law has lung cancer. They took her to the ER this morning coughing up blood, things don't sound very good. On new years day it will be 15 years since it took my father and at almost the same age as my sister in law is now. My brother is a recovering alcoholic, and took it real bad when our father passed. I don't know how he is going to make it through this. They have two teenage kids as well, my heart is breaking for my brother and his family right now.

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Posted 13 December 2012 - 10:00 PM

So sorry, tq

Thinking of you and your family.

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Posted 14 December 2012 - 04:07 PM

TQ2000, I'm sorry to hear about your Sister-in-law, and you and your family who will have to cope with this.


I recently found out about another friend's diagnosis, and it has me both crushed and heart-broken. Cancer is a miserable thief.
And if I can just rant for a minute - why the f* is it that lately all I hear is diagnoses that come in too late for treatment to be effective? What happened to catching it early, and treatable and remissions?! /end rant

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Posted 14 December 2012 - 04:52 PM

Thanks MSS and Bowgirl, and so sorry to hear about your friend as well. My wife and I are heading out to LI to see them tomorrow morning. Not much to do except just be there for them at this time. Will hopefully hear more from the docs in the next few days.

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Posted 04 January 2013 - 05:22 AM

Just before Christmas I got my Five Year Star. It seems I made it through my cancer odyssey. There were days when I could not imagine getting to this point. The doctor wants me to take the drugs for 3 more months, but that is a down wind sailing.

My thoughts and prayers are for everyone on this thread who continue to fight cancer, as a patient or as one of the wonderful support people.

Happy New everyone!

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Posted 04 January 2013 - 08:15 PM

That is great news with which to start the year, Behappy. Congratulations!

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Posted 18 January 2013 - 11:52 PM

Our thoughts go out to longtime Anarchist Skirts today. Bumcleat/Eventually/Evo will be missed by all.

There's a thread in GA.

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Posted 19 January 2013 - 02:08 AM

SA is responsible for some amazing friendships, and great relationships. Fuck cancer for messing with it!

There are no words eloquent enough to express how deeply my heart aches for SkirtRacer and all those who will miss him.

Fair winds, Evo.

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Posted 19 January 2013 - 02:17 AM

+1

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Posted 19 January 2013 - 05:26 AM

f****** cancer sucks!

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Posted 19 January 2013 - 12:56 PM

FUCK cancer. I am so sick and tired of hearing about everyone dying of cancer. My mother died of caner. What the hell did the human race do to deserve such a horrid disease?

To all of those who are fighting it and to those who have kicked it's filthy ass, Keep up the fight.

My heart bleeds for Simon, Katie and their family. RIP Evo, you will be truly missed.

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Posted 20 January 2013 - 12:53 AM

F****** the stupid Cancer + one. We are here are not going away with out a fight, sorry to hear about the lost of close friends.


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Posted 20 January 2013 - 06:35 AM

Yesterday was the birthday of my dearest friend Todd Warner who died last July from a lung cancer diagnosed in April. I was also thinking of him as we delivered some of Catherine's ashes to the waters of Key West yesterday morning.

As a friend said, I hope there is a heaven, if only so he can be having birthday cake and ice cream.

I miss you Todd. And miss having met you Catherine, wishing you birthday cake and ice cream too.

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Posted 20 January 2013 - 01:30 PM

Me....still in hospital now. Couple days before New Years my femur split in two. And my hip shattered. I folded up like a tent. Rushed to the hospital. Emergency bi opsy. surgery a week later. They pulled 3 huge fist size clumps of cancer that had been eating away at my bones for what they figure was a few years. No warning call. Straight out of the blue. So now onward and up ward. I now have more drive and desire to get my boat refinished. This fucker isn't holding me back down. Radiation starts next week.

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Posted 20 January 2013 - 01:38 PM

Me....still in hospital now. Couple days before New Years my femur split in two. And my hip shattered. I folded up like a tent. Rushed to the hospital. Emergency bi opsy. surgery a week later. They pulled 3 huge fist size clumps of cancer that had been eating away at my bones for what they figure was a few years. No warning call. Straight out of the blue. So now onward and up ward. I now have more drive and desire to get my boat refinished. This fucker isn't holding me back down. Radiation starts next week.


Keep up the fight, and beat this mother fucker. My thoughts are with you, as is this whole community.

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Posted 20 January 2013 - 01:40 PM

I recieved an email from a woman I met while being treated for throat cancer. Her brother was another one that was recieving treatment at the same time so we became attached because of our situation. He died last week. The third of the 5 I saw frequently while I was going for radiation every day for 7 weeks.
Sucks
I am still in remission but the pressure of waiting for it to come back is omnipresent. So far its been over two years ;)

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Posted 20 January 2013 - 01:51 PM

Me....still in hospital now. Couple days before New Years my femur split in two. And my hip shattered. I folded up like a tent. Rushed to the hospital. Emergency bi opsy. surgery a week later. They pulled 3 huge fist size clumps of cancer that had been eating away at my bones for what they figure was a few years. No warning call. Straight out of the blue. So now onward and up ward. I now have more drive and desire to get my boat refinished. This fucker isn't holding me back down. Radiation starts next week.


Kick it's ass, we're behind you and your fight. I now know more survivors than I know patients. Keep up the attitude.

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Posted 20 January 2013 - 05:50 PM

Fight hard, Jus....we're all pullin' for you.

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Posted 20 January 2013 - 06:02 PM

Jus:
Best of luck with this challenge. I'll be thinking of you.

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Posted 20 January 2013 - 09:57 PM

Me....still in hospital now. Couple days before New Years my femur split in two. And my hip shattered. I folded up like a tent. Rushed to the hospital. Emergency bi opsy. surgery a week later. They pulled 3 huge fist size clumps of cancer that had been eating away at my bones for what they figure was a few years. No warning call. Straight out of the blue. So now onward and up ward. I now have more drive and desire to get my boat refinished. This fucker isn't holding me back down. Radiation starts next week.

As a survivor my heart is with you
Keep your sense of humour it will take you a long way in the fight
No one really knows how it feels until they go to tv at dark corner

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Posted 20 January 2013 - 11:20 PM

Skin cancer, very routine variety, (not melanoma) took a rare trip from my arm to my nodes and surrounding tissue. Now I spend my outside time covered in Blue Lizard.

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Posted 21 January 2013 - 02:41 AM

juswannagofast - this is a good place for support and humour. We feel all things deeply - we cheer successes, we cry when the battle is lost. Let us know what you need from us (shoulder, ear, kick in the ass, slap upside the head, tacky jokes, anything) - we're good for it. ;)
Cheering you on!

Jetfuel - I'm so sorry about the loss of your friend. There are no good words. I know you're haunted by your remission and the possible end thereof, but please focus on the good and positive fact that 2 years have passed of fully lived life, and more await.

One thing I'm learning is that there is always an end - we just never know when it's coming, so the middle we have that we call "life" is up to us to ensure we wring every drop out of.
After all, no one has yet succeeded in cheating death - we all go sometime. I just hate that f*king cancer robs friends of years and robs me of the presence of my friends.

Big hugs to those of us here mourning the loss of Evo.

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Posted 21 January 2013 - 02:58 AM

Yesterday was the birthday of my dearest friend Todd Warner who died last July from a lung cancer diagnosed in April. I was also thinking of him as we delivered some of Catherine's ashes to the waters of Key West yesterday morning.

As a friend said, I hope there is a heaven, if only so he can be having birthday cake and ice cream.

I miss you Todd. And miss having met you Catherine, wishing you birthday cake and ice cream too.


Very glad that you were with me in Key West for that, H.

So sorry about your your friend. I wish I had known that yesterday was his birthday while we were out on the boat.

And on behalf of my sister, thanks for the kind words, but I know that she would much rather have beer for her birthday. Lots of beer.

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Posted 21 January 2013 - 03:52 AM

Me....still in hospital now. Couple days before New Years my femur split in two. And my hip shattered. I folded up like a tent. Rushed to the hospital. Emergency bi opsy. surgery a week later. They pulled 3 huge fist size clumps of cancer that had been eating away at my bones for what they figure was a few years. No warning call. Straight out of the blue. So now onward and up ward. I now have more drive and desire to get my boat refinished. This fucker isn't holding me back down. Radiation starts next week.


You can kick it's a$$, juswannagofast. Keep up the fight. We're with you.

My story is pretty much garden viarety, if you will. I was late for my mamo last year by a couple of months. Just couldn't seem to find the time. Quite by accident one evening, I brushed against my right side and felt something hard. Quite out of place. I made an appointment the next morning to see my Dr. Many tests later, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Had the surgery in August and they removed a large egg sized tumor from my right breast. Hadn't matastisised yet. I completed chemo in December and have just started radiation. That should be finished by the end of March, then I'm finished.

I watched this disease take some friends, aunts, uncles and my mother. I don't wish this beast on anyone. For those who are fighting this, keep up the good fight. You can beat this!! For those who have lost friends and/or family, my heart goes out to you. For those who are support for someone fighting this beast right now, keep strong, give them lots of love and a positive attitude. I could not have made it this far without the love and support of Charlie and our friends/family.

My best to you all, Charlotte.

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Posted 21 January 2013 - 06:15 AM

Makes one wonder about the millions and millions (billions?) That have been spent on research and fricken cancer is still wrecking havouc in our lives.

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Posted 21 January 2013 - 07:31 PM

Hopefully I can add one to the survivor side of the list. Got home from Cowes Week last august with a case of the crud I obviously got flying cattle car style from Heathrow to Seattle via Dallas. After a week and a half of coughing and wheezing (and sharing it with my wife) I was in talking with my GP about blood pressure medication and he asked if there were any health changes. I mentioned the gland in my neck that had swollen up which I thought was due to the cold. He looked at it and said to come back to check in a couple of weeks. When I did it was possibly ever so slightly smaller but not gone - we gave it one more week and then started testing. Turned out to be Squamis cell carcenoma which we finally tracked down to my left tonsil site (tonsils came out when I was a kid). Radiation and chemo started late October and finished right before the holiday break. One hell of a diet program is all I can say. Swallowing got to be problematic for a while, my hearing has suffered, my taste buds are shot, etc but the tumor receeded better than they had hoped so now I'm in limbo waiting for the followup scans to see if it's gone. Gotta wait for 2-3 mo following treatment to get a good scan. Having gone thru my wife's breast, endrimetrial, and brain cancer episodes I have always said I hate cancer with every cell in my body - my thoughts are unchanged. I've had it relatively easy I know but I hope to be able to add one to the win column. Van Isle 360 is on the horizon, I go in tomorrow for ACL replacement surgery but I can well and truly say I'm feeling better ever damn day. Cancer is a bump in the road - not the journey.

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Posted 21 January 2013 - 11:17 PM

Hopefully I can add one to the survivor side of the list. Got home from Cowes Week last august with a case of the crud I obviously got flying cattle car style from Heathrow to Seattle via Dallas. After a week and a half of coughing and wheezing (and sharing it with my wife) I was in talking with my GP about blood pressure medication and he asked if there were any health changes. I mentioned the gland in my neck that had swollen up which I thought was due to the cold. He looked at it and said to come back to check in a couple of weeks. When I did it was possibly ever so slightly smaller but not gone - we gave it one more week and then started testing. Turned out to be Squamis cell carcenoma which we finally tracked down to my left tonsil site (tonsils came out when I was a kid). Radiation and chemo started late October and finished right before the holiday break. One hell of a diet program is all I can say. Swallowing got to be problematic for a while, my hearing has suffered, my taste buds are shot, etc but the tumor receeded better than they had hoped so now I'm in limbo waiting for the followup scans to see if it's gone. Gotta wait for 2-3 mo following treatment to get a good scan. Having gone thru my wife's breast, endrimetrial, and brain cancer episodes I have always said I hate cancer with every cell in my body - my thoughts are unchanged. I've had it relatively easy I know but I hope to be able to add one to the win column. Van Isle 360 is on the horizon, I go in tomorrow for ACL replacement surgery but I can well and truly say I'm feeling better ever damn day. Cancer is a bump in the road - not the journey.


Went thrugh the exact same prcedure myself and two 1/2 yrs without it coming back. Tasting a little now
Not an easy time though Congratulatins for making it through Many dont

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Posted 07 February 2013 - 08:46 AM

I need an answer.

I live quite away from my Sister that is cancer fucked... she'll die from it, its all about when.

At the moment she is in hospital for 'pain managment' to me that sounds like palitive care, you've got weeks not years. And everybody is being positive, they'll get it right etc. Thats Mum, Dad, Husband etc.

So I feel like a cunt (its about me, makes me feel worse) I want to go visit for a while but it outside any plans I had. I dont want to have it seen that I'm visiting before you die..

But you can't visit when they are gone... And phone calls etc don't cut it, other than being there in person

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Posted 07 February 2013 - 10:48 AM

Bob the term palliative care encompasses a wide array of treatments, stages of process and conditions. Palliation means that underlying disease process cannot be cured, but may involve every treatment, medication, procedure to try and control symptoms. It does not always mean death is imminent, although unfortunately it might be.
My advice is go see her. It might not be the last time you see her, but if you don't and she does die, you will be kicking yourself forever.

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Posted 07 February 2013 - 10:48 AM

I want to go visit for a while but it outside any plans I had. I dont want to have it seen that I'm visiting before you die..

But you can't visit when they are gone... And phone calls etc don't cut it, other than being there in person

juste go....go, supportte youre famley.

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Posted 07 February 2013 - 11:04 AM

I need an answer.

I live quite away from my Sister that is cancer fucked... she'll die from it, its all about when.

At the moment she is in hospital for 'pain managment' to me that sounds like palitive care, you've got weeks not years. And everybody is being positive, they'll get it right etc. Thats Mum, Dad, Husband etc.

So I feel like a cunt (its about me, makes me feel worse) I want to go visit for a while but it outside any plans I had. I dont want to have it seen that I'm visiting before you die..

But you can't visit when they are gone... And phone calls etc don't cut it, other than being there in person


Go. Be with her. Maybe you thought that she would be there for the rest of your life, like I thought my sister would be there for the rest of mine.

This is going to come across as sounding harsh, but when the writing is on the wall and you can see that it is not going to be that way, you need to set your shit aside and be there for the rest of Her life.

You won't regret it.

And know that part of my heart goes with you.

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Posted 07 February 2013 - 02:39 PM

Go. Be with her. Maybe you thought that she would be there for the rest of your life, like I thought my sister would be there for the rest of mine.

This is going to come across as sounding harsh, but when the writing is on the wall and you can see that it is not going to be that way, you need to set your shit aside and be there for the rest of Her life.

You won't regret it.

And know that part of my heart goes with you.

/\ Truth from one who has lived it.

You don't get a second chance after they're gone. My biggest regret in life was not visiting a very close friend before he died of cancer. Going to visit Catherine in her last weeks was essentially an act of contrition and as much for me, it was one of the better things I've done in my life. Those were friends, not siblings.

Go.

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Posted 07 February 2013 - 04:17 PM

I would like to thank everyone for the get well wishes...I have a long road ahead of me....learning to walk again is not fun...but on the bright side I still have my leg at this point...radiation starts in 11 days, for 8 weeks.....and it's a sad day as I have had to list my boat for sale after 5 enjoyable seasons....I just will not be able to handle a boat of that size, my leg will not be able to handle it and I have lost almost 2/3ds of my muscles over my whole body through this whole ordeal.....so I will be downsizing.

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Posted 07 February 2013 - 06:05 PM

I need an answer.

I live quite away from my Sister that is cancer fucked... she'll die from it, its all about when.

At the moment she is in hospital for 'pain managment' to me that sounds like palitive care, you've got weeks not years. And everybody is being positive, they'll get it right etc. Thats Mum, Dad, Husband etc.

So I feel like a cunt (its about me, makes me feel worse) I want to go visit for a while but it outside any plans I had. I dont want to have it seen that I'm visiting before you die..

But you can't visit when they are gone... And phone calls etc don't cut it, other than being there in person


Shute Man just go, do it for her, not all cancer are deadly. I'm in remission after been diagnosed on 10/10/11 and Iwil die in a sailboat racing before I die in a Hospital bed. Believe me, you have no idea how much it means to her.

That is me on the picture last summer AYCS; not bad for a dead man, :)

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Posted 07 February 2013 - 08:01 PM


I need an answer.

I live quite away from my Sister that is cancer fucked... she'll die from it, its all about when.

At the moment she is in hospital for 'pain managment' to me that sounds like palitive care, you've got weeks not years. And everybody is being positive, they'll get it right etc. Thats Mum, Dad, Husband etc.

So I feel like a cunt (its about me, makes me feel worse) I want to go visit for a while but it outside any plans I had. I dont want to have it seen that I'm visiting before you die..

But you can't visit when they are gone... And phone calls etc don't cut it, other than being there in person


Shute Man just go, do it for her, not all cancer are deadly. I'm in remission after been diagnosed on 10/10/11 and Iwil die in a sailboat racing before I die in a Hospital bed. Believe me, you have no idea how much it means to her.

That is me on the picture last summer AYCS; not bad for a dead man, :)

Best Mario...

Which guy?
Please, find a boat other than a J105 to do it on.
But I do agree, I want to die on the water.

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Posted 08 February 2013 - 02:57 PM

Shute Man, in case you haven't got the message from everyone else ... go.
Visit because you want to visit.
Everyone will see it whatever way they want to see it - that's not yours to control, that's not your issue. Your issue is you (yes, it's all about you) and how you live with yourself in the days, weeks, years that follow.

Go. She's your sister for fuck's sake. As far as I'm concerned, all shit gets set aside for important family events like births, weddings, funerals, serious illnesses ... be there for her because you need to for you. ...and because it just may mean the world to her, too.

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Posted 08 February 2013 - 03:06 PM

I need an answer.

I live quite away from my Sister that is cancer fucked... she'll die from it, its all about when.

At the moment she is in hospital for 'pain managment' to me that sounds like palitive care, you've got weeks not years. And everybody is being positive, they'll get it right etc. Thats Mum, Dad, Husband etc.

So I feel like a cunt (its about me, makes me feel worse) I want to go visit for a while but it outside any plans I had. I dont want to have it seen that I'm visiting before you die..

But you can't visit when they are gone... And phone calls etc don't cut it, other than being there in person


Go see her. After my first round of chemo in '77 I had a friend diagnosed with liver cancer. I went to see Dwayne in the hospital. He looked terrible, had tube in his veins, was being treated with everything they could to save him. He died the day after I visited. I cam away saying the treatment (remember this was 1980) was killing him as much as the cancer. I vowed never to died in the hospital like that. ABout 4 uears later another friend got the bad news too. She knew I was a survivor and knew about Dwayne too. She asked me if she should take extended treatment or not. I just said I wasn't dying "in there." She died peacefully at home, with her children around. In the early 90's a sailing friend of mine developed prostrate cancer. I really stuggled going to see him. I knew he was BAD when he said beer just didn't even taste good anymore, Frank loved his beer. He died at home with hospice care. God bless those people. But I didn't see him often enough at the end...it haunts me. I have another tale but right now I just can't type it.... Go see her. Win ever.

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Posted 08 February 2013 - 09:34 PM

Shute Man, in case you haven't got the message from everyone else ... go.
Visit because you want to visit.
Everyone will see it whatever way they want to see it - that's not yours to control, that's not your issue. Your issue is you (yes, it's all about you) and how you live with yourself in the days, weeks, years that follow.

Go. She's your sister for fuck's sake. As far as I'm concerned, all shit gets set aside for important family events like births, weddings, funerals, serious illnesses ... be there for her because you need to for you. ...and because it just may mean the world to her, too.


I second Bowgirl opinion.

Shute Man if you are in the try state area I will Volunteer to go with you, I know that coming from stranger it my sound Off yes because is a personal issue.

Dude I will drive you there and them maybe we can have a beer after.

regards Mario...

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Posted 08 February 2013 - 09:35 PM

I would like to thank everyone for the get well wishes...I have a long road ahead of me....learning to walk again is not fun...but on the bright side I still have my leg at this point...radiation starts in 11 days, for 8 weeks.....and it's a sad day as I have had to list my boat for sale after 5 enjoyable seasons....I just will not be able to handle a boat of that size, my leg will not be able to handle it and I have lost almost 2/3ds of my muscles over my whole body through this whole ordeal.....so I will be downsizing.

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Downsizing is ok - you're still mobile and that's important. Baby steps (no pun intended). And there's nothing wrong with crewing, if you feel up to it.
Slow & steady, just keep going.

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Posted 08 February 2013 - 09:45 PM


Shute Man, in case you haven't got the message from everyone else ... go.
Visit because you want to visit.
Everyone will see it whatever way they want to see it - that's not yours to control, that's not your issue. Your issue is you (yes, it's all about you) and how you live with yourself in the days, weeks, years that follow.

Go. She's your sister for fuck's sake. As far as I'm concerned, all shit gets set aside for important family events like births, weddings, funerals, serious illnesses ... be there for her because you need to for you. ...and because it just may mean the world to her, too.


I second Bowgirl opinion.

Shute Man if you are in the try state area I will Volunteer to go with you, I know that coming from stranger it my sound Off yes because is a personal issue.

Dude I will drive you there and them maybe we can have a beer after.

regards Mario...


Hey Mario - good to see you. We all seem to be quiet when we're not on this thread. How are you doing? Is your Orchid blooming? I keep looking at mine, in hopes of something, but all I get so far is new leaves. Not complaining - at least they're still thriving - but in the middle of winter I'd love to see a blossom or two.

Have you ever seen a Lucky Plant? I have one that I put outside this past summer and it got HUGE and now it has flowers! I never knew it flowered!!
Here's a crappy picture, but you get the idea - it's usually in a 6" pot - this one is 4 feet tall!

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Posted 08 February 2013 - 10:54 PM

I need an answer.


Go see her.

When I was in the hospital I really appreciated friends and family visiting, lifted my day when I was feeling bad and provided me with many distractions.

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Posted 08 February 2013 - 10:57 PM


I need an answer.


Go see her.

When I was in the hospital I really appreciated friends and family visiting, lifted my day when I was feeling bad and provided me with many distractions.


Agreed. More than anything else during the last weeks of her life, my sister was lonely.

Please go.

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Posted 08 February 2013 - 11:00 PM

I would like to thank everyone for the get well wishes...I have a long road ahead of me....learning to walk again is not fun...but on the bright side I still have my leg at this point...radiation starts in 11 days, for 8 weeks.....and it's a sad day as I have had to list my boat for sale after 5 enjoyable seasons....I just will not be able to handle a boat of that size, my leg will not be able to handle it and I have lost almost 2/3ds of my muscles over my whole body through this whole ordeal.....so I will be downsizing.

JUS


All the Best.
Know the sadness of having to sell the boat. As my Wife does not sail and could not look after the old wooden yacht I pretty much gave the yacht to a guy with young children in his family - those kids learnt to sail on my old yacht. :)

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Posted 09 February 2013 - 01:25 PM

Thanks Riggert

Well I am sad...that's for sure, but I did weigh in what the fun factor was worth to me over the five years and the great times, the great friends, and great events that we took part in...I guess the best part was, that I was still getting may parents out on race nights and they are pushing 80.
So I have highly discounted the price on this boat, it's turn key, well looked after, great sail inventory eft.

Someone is going to have a steal of a deal.

And I have joined the Disabled Sailing Association of Ontario. So all will good.

JUS

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Posted 09 February 2013 - 02:42 PM

Thanks Riggert

Well I am sad...that's for sure, but I did weigh in what the fun factor was worth to me over the five years and the great times, the great friends, and great events that we took part in...I guess the best part was, that I was still getting may parents out on race nights and they are pushing 80.
So I have highly discounted the price on this boat, it's turn key, well looked after, great sail inventory eft.

Someone is going to have a steal of a deal.

And I have joined the Disabled Sailing Association of Ontario. So all will good.

JUS


Where do you live?
I am in Toronto and you are welcome to come sailing with me anytime on my Figaro
I am a survivor too and would be pleased to sail with you

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Posted 09 February 2013 - 02:45 PM

Been in remission for 3 yrs now :)

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Posted 15 February 2013 - 03:53 AM

Well, here we are. Five years later.

"Congratulations! You have 'graduated' to long-term follow-up. You can now think of yourself as a cancer survivor, not as a cancer patient!"


That's the opening line of the first page of the information packet we received yesterday at MassGeneral during the Pebble's intake into the Long Term Follow-up Clinic. Their emphasis. Wow. I can finally speak the words-


Remission.


Survivor.



Congratulations Trent! DX 1/21/08.

Thank you to our heros:

Dr. William Butler, neurosurgeon

Dr. Allison Freidmann, hemo oncology
Dr. Nancy Tarbell, radiation oncology
Mary Jo Gonzales, PNP
And all of the staff at MassGeneral Hospital for Children.


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L to R: Me, Dr. Freidmann, Pebble, Mary Jo, Dr. Tarbell


Mere words of thanks are entirely inadequate. There were long hugs all around.

The joy and relief of the oncologists while discussing his minimal learning difficulties was palpable. When a world renown specialist says, "I really worried about this little guy a lot." it reinforced how lucky we are. And how caring all of the staff are, even the top docs. Their patient's outcome matter deeply to them. I don't know how they can do what they do every day, when all outcomes are sadly not as good, as we here know. But it's obvious that the days like this are uplifting for them as well. I think they understandably put up a wall for self protection, which they're able to finally lower at this point.

We had the most extraordinary lunch yesterday, after his hearing test. We're sitting in the MGH cafeteria, waiting for our appointments and eating pizza. It's crowded, a soft spoken young black gentleman asks to share our table, and inquired "Why you are here today?" I tell him about Trent's brain tumor, treatment and what we're doing today. He asks some rather more detailed questions. Turns out he's British, a Cambridge educated geneticist who came to MGH to research brain tumor treatment. Thank you Lawrence. I was left in tears for the work of the otherwise faceless, unthanked people working in the labs for us, before even seeing the folks that literally saved the Pebble's life. It was a precious opportunity to shake someone's hand and say, "Thank You. Your work matters, as you can see."

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So fortunate to have this incredible place, filled with incredible people.

So fortunate to be be able to call my son a survivor.

Thank you to all here who have been so loving and supportive. We couldn't have done it without your help too.


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Posted 15 February 2013 - 11:03 AM

Much love to you and your precious children, Dan.

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Posted 15 February 2013 - 11:45 AM

Well, here we are. Five years later.

"Congratulations! You have 'graduated' to long-term follow-up. You can now think of yourself as a cancer survivor, not as a cancer patient!"


That's the opening line of the first page of the information packet we received yesterday at MassGeneral during the Pebble's intake into the Long Term Follow-up Clinic. Their emphasis. Wow. I can finally speak the words-



Remission.


Survivor.



Congratulations Trent! DX 1/21/08.

Thank you to our heros:


Dr. William Butler, neurosurgeon

Dr. Allison Freidmann, hemo oncology
Dr. Nancy Tarbell, radiation oncology
Mary Jo Gonzales, PNP
And all of the staff at MassGeneral Hospital for Children.


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L to R: Me, Dr. Freidmann, Pebble, Mary Jo, Dr. Tarbell


Mere words of thanks are entirely inadequate. There were long hugs all around.

The joy and relief of the oncologists while discussing his minimal learning difficulties was palpable. When a world renown specialist says, "I really worried about this little guy a lot." it reinforced how lucky we are. And how caring all of the staff are, even the top docs. Their patient's outcome matter deeply to them. I don't know how they can do what they do every day, when all outcomes are sadly not as good, as we here know. But it's obvious that the days like this are uplifting for them as well. I think they understandably put up a wall for self protection, which they're able to finally lower at this point.

We had the most extraordinary lunch yesterday, after his hearing test. We're sitting in the MGH cafeteria, waiting for our appointments and eating pizza. It's crowded, a soft spoken young black gentleman asks to share our table, and inquired "Why you are here today?" I tell him about Trent's brain tumor, treatment and what we're doing today. He asks some rather more detailed questions. Turns out he's British, a Cambridge educated geneticist who came to MGH to research brain tumor treatment. Thank you Lawrence. I was left in tears for the work of the otherwise faceless, unthanked people working in the labs for us, before even seeing the folks that literally saved the Pebble's life. It was a precious opportunity to shake someone's hand and say, "Thank You. Your work matters, as you can see."

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So fortunate to have this incredible place, filled with incredible people.

So fortunate to be be able to call my son a survivor.

Thank you to all here who have been so loving and supportive. We couldn't have done it without your help too.




a great day...and it looks like the end of the great day was pizza.....sweet.....

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Posted 15 February 2013 - 03:10 PM

Congratulations, Pebble! A chip off the old Rockhead :P

Fabulous news to go from "patient" to "survivor" «happy dance»

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Posted 15 February 2013 - 05:48 PM

So fortunate to be be able to call my son a survivor.


Wonderful news, RH!
Blessings all around!

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Posted 15 February 2013 - 06:08 PM

Awesome update RockHead and Pebble. Best possible news!! Thanks for sharing your good news here.

Most of us are affected in some way by cancer .... self, family, friends, co-workers. I found this website helpful recently. No doubt lots of helpful sites out there.

http://parentingwith...ses-caregivers/

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Posted 21 February 2013 - 02:41 AM

Today, the three year old son of my best friend, was diagnosed with cancer. It`s a Wilm`s tumor. Waiting for staging, to check if it has spread. Then will be the decison re: sequence of surgery, chemo, radiation. 90% survival after all that, if it was caught early enough.

Hearing of triumphs here is very inspiring to others.

Hugs your kids again, and tell them how much you love them : )

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Posted 21 February 2013 - 01:44 PM

This was shared with me by a friend today. - Zach's story can be read here: http://www.twincitie...ye-through-song .

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Posted 22 February 2013 - 04:57 AM

Great link Bowgirl. He is an incredibly inspiring young man. He just released this follow up song ...


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Posted 22 February 2013 - 06:54 AM

Thank you all :)

And best of luck for your friend's son Boomberries. PM me if your friend would like to talk to another parent who's been through it. It was one of the things that was very helpful for me going through it.

Thanks for sharing those videos, very touching. My eyes seem to be leaking once again.

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Posted 22 February 2013 - 05:04 PM

Rockhead, So Happy for you. The Pebbles gona kick your butt on the racecourse someday!
Fritz

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Posted 23 February 2013 - 03:08 AM

I need an answer.

I live quite away from my Sister that is cancer fucked... she'll die from it, its all about when.

At the moment she is in hospital for 'pain managment' to me that sounds like palitive care, you've got weeks not years. And everybody is being positive, they'll get it right etc. Thats Mum, Dad, Husband etc.

So I feel like a cunt (its about me, makes me feel worse) I want to go visit for a while but it outside any plans I had. I dont want to have it seen that I'm visiting before you die..

But you can't visit when they are gone... And phone calls etc don't cut it, other than being there in person


SH,
My father died last year from cancer, I posted in this thread at the time.
I didn't want to go see him as I hated seeing him like that near the end, but something made me do it.
I can tell you it was the best thing I have ever done.
He couldn't talk but I told him how much he meant to me and simply sat with him for an hour. I left with an overwhelming sense of peace,almost like I could accept it and move on.
He died 7 hours later.
Every now and then I feel like he is watching still, and I can embrace those thoughts without any feeling of guilt or remorse.
If you don't do anything else in life, please Shuteman, for your sake and hers, go and see her.
Hang on for a tick......(shuffle shuffle scrape)....I'm on my knees and begging you.
Please.
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Posted 16 May 2013 - 06:51 AM

A wee bump. Just checking in. Charlotte - how are you making out?

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Posted 21 May 2013 - 10:54 AM

Zach's battle is over, but not before he made a lasting impression.

 

http://www.cnn.com/2...x.html?c&page=1

 

 

 

This was shared with me by a friend today. - Zach's story can be read here: http://www.twincitie...ye-through-song .



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Posted 06 June 2013 - 06:34 PM

I'd rather be lucky than smart - I'm far better at it.  My motto for many years and still true.  When last I posted in January I had completed treatment for throat cancer (interesting to have the Michael Douglas commentary on the press since we share that boat) and I was headed in for ACL replacement.  Both threads of my life have seeming worked out so far and I'm headed off tomorrow for the Van Isle 360 - 2013 version.  I'll carry no guilt for being lucky, only remorse for those whose voyages have been cut short by cancer.



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Posted 06 June 2013 - 07:07 PM

I'd rather be lucky than smart - I'm far better at it.  My motto for many years and still true.  When last I posted in January I had completed treatment for throat cancer (interesting to have the Michael Douglas commentary on the press since we share that boat) and I was headed in for ACL replacement.  Both threads of my life have seeming worked out so far and I'm headed off tomorrow for the Van Isle 360 - 2013 version.  I'll carry no guilt for being lucky, only remorse for those whose voyages have been cut short by cancer.

I had stage 4 throat cancer also and have been in remission now for 3 yrs. Tough cure but worth it . Good luck!



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Posted 06 June 2013 - 08:23 PM

3 and a half years in remission for me. 

Awhile back the Wife told me she wanted to get on with our lives - The specialists said give it a go the risks are now normal -

This week we welcomed into our home a sister for our 4year old daughter. :)

 

 



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Posted 09 June 2013 - 03:16 AM

3 and a half years in remission for me. 

Awhile back the Wife told me she wanted to get on with our lives - The specialists said give it a go the risks are now normal -

This week we welcomed into our home a sister for our 4year old daughter. :)

 

That is a beautiful thing, indeed!

 

Congratulations!



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Posted 09 June 2013 - 06:31 AM

Thanks MSS.



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Posted 17 July 2013 - 12:56 PM

 

Beg to report have just completed own first sail of the year - small SYC race 'around the cans'.

Did not disembowel self on winch handle.

Lady Moonriver would not even allow to touch winch handle!

Trust others have had as nice a Sunday.

Go go go biggrin.gif

 

Further to earlier postings, can now report Ileostomy reversed, gradual return to normal offensive behaviour and perhaps a small race this weekend.

Fair winds and good outcomes to all with their own variations on this awful theme.

moonriver

 

I was mooching around on SA when I recognised Moonriver from this post as one of my fellow sailors at Sussex Yacht Club. Lump in throat as I have to report that a few months after his last posting Moonriver left our race course forever. Mrs Moonriver is however living life to the full and is currently taking their boat, Moonriver, around Britain with the Old Gaffers. 



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Posted 17 July 2013 - 10:32 PM

Heavy duty stuff.

Fair winds Moon.

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Posted 17 July 2013 - 11:12 PM

Condolences to you, friends and family.

 

So sorry.



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Posted 18 July 2013 - 01:32 AM

I HATE this thread.

 

But it is without doubt the most important thread at this asylum.

 

Carry on with strength and hope.



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Posted 20 August 2013 - 12:13 PM

Fuck cancer - everything about it. But most of all, fuck how long and drawn out and painful it all is. My uncle was given the terminal diagnosis a year ago, just weeks after getting the 5 year all clear, and opted for no treatment. He's so very ill. Not properly living, just hanging on in pain and unable to do the things he loves. My grandmother is elderly and just can't take this - watching her son waste away before her. She's frightened. Hates seeing him in pain but wishing for the pain to end and for this all to be over is wishing for him to die. Then there's the guilt. It's tiring, but wanting it all to be over means wanting him to die, but not wanting for him to die is what, wanting this to continue? Wishing pain, sickness and discomfort the likes of which I hope never to experience on someone? Fuck cancer.



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Posted 20 August 2013 - 04:18 PM

Fuck cancer - everything about it. But most of all, fuck how long and drawn out and painful it all is. My uncle was given the terminal diagnosis a year ago, just weeks after getting the 5 year all clear, and opted for no treatment. He's so very ill. Not properly living, just hanging on in pain and unable to do the things he loves. My grandmother is elderly and just can't take this - watching her son waste away before her. She's frightened. Hates seeing him in pain but wishing for the pain to end and for this all to be over is wishing for him to die. Then there's the guilt. It's tiring, but wanting it all to be over means wanting him to die, but not wanting for him to die is what, wanting this to continue? Wishing pain, sickness and discomfort the likes of which I hope never to experience on someone? Fuck cancer.

It's been over six years since Dad finished his journey. I just reread my post of January 2008 and that ripped off the emotional scab again......having said that, I look back on his last two years of physical and emotional pain and treasure many of those moments (I know it sounds weird). He never quit fighting until he simply couldn't any more. He wasn't the kind of guy to tell his son(s) he loved them; but he did. As I stated in my prior post in this thread, he taught me how to live and then taught me how to die. I miss my old man a lot but I bet he treasured those last years as well. Just sayin.......

I will definitely join you in your sentiment....Fuck cancer!



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Posted 20 August 2013 - 04:35 PM

GrouchyIRL - no one would wish this on anyone.

It's been said on here before, but there is not much "dying with grace and dignity" in this.  It's all out ravaging and to be standing by, watching and supporting or to be in the throes of it yourself ... it sucks and there's no handbook to know if you're doing it right, doing it wrong and why or why not to feel guilty.

I'm of the opinion that no matter your role, if you're in it you're doing it right. 

I'm also of the opinion that there is nothing to feel guilty about when you want someone's pain to just be over with.  It's a kind thought, but oh the horror of realising you're wishing someone dead.  As far as I'm concerned, it's not wishing them dead, it's wishing someone peace and rest from what can be a seemingly interminable battle. 

Strength and courage to you, GrouchyIRL, so that you can be there for your Grandmother, who can in turn be there for your Uncle.



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Posted 21 August 2013 - 02:20 PM

... I recently found out that my father has prostrate cancer. He’s going in to get it taken out in Detroit.

One of the best in the business works out of Detroit. Just had mine removed in Grand Rapids MI. after I came back positive. One month into recovery and my margins are zero.



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Posted 21 August 2013 - 05:33 PM

I'm reluctant to post something so personal but I thought it might help if anyone is debating whether or not to be vaccinated against the HP Virus.

Eight weeks ago my ex, mother of my first son, went to her eye doctor to look into an annoying pain in her eye. He referred to Nose Throat Specialist. He found what looked like a growth inside her nasal cavity. MRI. CAT Scans determined it to be caused by HPV. Highly unusual, the tumor had attached itself to a nerve ending and had penetrated her derma into her brain cavity. The first team of doctors wanted to open her up. We found a second team that used a less invasive approach, through her nose.

A team of the best Neurosurgeons in the city operated on her and were able to remove up to 95% of the tumor. A biopsy was taken and it proved to be malignant. She had been undergoing radiation every day and chemo once a week. However, a team of 30 doctors, upon reviewing her case amongst others (it is highly unusual to be attached to a nerve ending) determined the cancer may have progressed to stage 4. We'll know today for sure. She'll need a spinal tap and heavy chemo.

Interestingly, the entire team of doctors that operated on her have been vaccinated against this virus. In their words, it has reached epidemic proportions. They are also not entirely sure if the virus can be transmitted in others ways besides physical contact.

She is in the process of being vaccinated. My older son already has. My two other children will be. I'm next.

If you are debating whether or not to get a vaccination for you and/or your family, don't wait. It doesn't matter how old you are either. It's a vicious and relentless, cancer causing virus. Ask Michael Douglas.

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Posted 29 August 2013 - 11:00 AM

On a happier note, Tuesday was the fifth anniversary of the Pebble completing chemo and radiation. He's a happy, healthy, active 7 1/2 year old boy, excited to start second grade. A survivor, who very nearly wasn't.

I couldn't help but to reflect on our 5 1/2 year journey, the ups, the downs, the experiences we've had and the friends we've made.

To the survivors -particularly my cousin Kara.

To the lost -my dear friend and crew mate Michael, my college roommate Jim, my high school buddy Jim (sophomore year in high school), and of course Catherine.

Not going to see Michael before he passed is one of my greatest failures/regrets in life. Taking the Pebble and the Rockette to visit Catherine, and see her take joy in the innocence of his life in her last days, was one of the best things I've ever done.

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Posted 02 September 2013 - 09:19 AM

Our thoughts go out to longtime Anarchist Skirts today. Bumcleat/Eventually/Evo will be missed by all.

There's a thread in GA.

 

 

SA is responsible for some amazing friendships, and great relationships. Fuck cancer for messing with it!

There are no words eloquent enough to express how deeply my heart aches for SkirtRacer and all those who will miss him.

Fair winds, Evo.

 

 

+1

 

 

FUCK cancer. I am so sick and tired of hearing about everyone dying of cancer. My mother died of caner. What the hell did the human race do to deserve such a horrid disease?

To all of those who are fighting it and to those who have kicked it's filthy ass, Keep up the fight.

My heart bleeds for Simon, Katie and their family. RIP Evo, you will be truly missed.

 

 

juswannagofast - this is a good place for support and humour. We feel all things deeply - we cheer successes, we cry when the battle is lost. Let us know what you need from us (shoulder, ear, kick in the ass, slap upside the head, tacky jokes, anything) - we're good for it. ;)
Cheering you on!

Jetfuel - I'm so sorry about the loss of your friend. There are no good words. I know you're haunted by your remission and the possible end thereof, but please focus on the good and positive fact that 2 years have passed of fully lived life, and more await.

One thing I'm learning is that there is always an end - we just never know when it's coming, so the middle we have that we call "life" is up to us to ensure we wring every drop out of.
After all, no one has yet succeeded in cheating death - we all go sometime. I just hate that f*king cancer robs friends of years and robs me of the presence of my friends.

Big hugs to those of us here mourning the loss of Evo.

 

 

Thanks y'all.  And a special thanks to all the Anarchists that came to his funeral and wake (I was a little tipsy).  

 

Over seven months later, I'm finally starting to feel like I'm coming out of the fog of shock.  We loved being married to each other and had a wonderful respected friendship.  

 

Cancer can kiss my lily-white arse~!  He was too young to die and I am to young to be a widow.  

 

Haven't been on a boat since scattering Simon's ashes on the Harbour and then Yowie Bay/Port Hacking.  

 

Not sure if you guys have noticed an Evo-void here on Anarchy - but there certainly is a huge one in our little home by the sea.  

 

~Skirts (aka 'the wee-widow Evans').



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Posted 02 September 2013 - 01:50 PM

~Skirts (aka 'the wee-widow Evans').

 

Not a damned thing "wee" about your spirit, woman.  ^_^



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Posted 02 September 2013 - 04:17 PM

Love to you Skirts on the loss of your beloved.

 

Thrilled for you Rockhead on such a wonderful anniversary.  I love seeing the smiling faces of your children in the pictures that you post elsewhere.  That was a special day for me too.

 

Speaking of anniversaries...it was two years ago today that my sister Catherine went to the emergency room at St Peter's Hospital in Albany, NY due to abdominal pain, the same hospital that she was born in.  She was diagnosed with stage IV colon cancer the next day.  She died seven months and two days later.



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Posted 02 October 2013 - 10:54 AM

42 Medical Studies that Prove Cannabis Can Cure Cancer


 

Below is a list of 42 studies showing that marijuana cures cancer, categorized by the type of cancers being cured in each study. This extensive list only includes articles from credible scientific journals. It is important to note that we're not only talking about reducing the side effects of chemotherapy, we're talking about completely curing the cancer itself!



Cures Brain Cancer

http://www.nature.co...s/6603236a.html
http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/11479216
http://www.jneurosci...7/6475.abstract
http://jpet.aspetjou.../3/838.abstract
http://mct.aacrjourn...0/1/90.abstract
http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/17952650
http://www.ncbi.nlm....les/PMC1576089/
http://www.jci.org/articles/view/37948 http://cancerres.aac...64/16/5617.full

 

Cures Mouth and Throat Cancer

 

http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/20516734

Cures Breast Cancer

 

http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/20859676
http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/18025276
http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/21915267
http://jpet.aspetjou...7.full.pdf html
http://www.molecular...content/9/1/196 http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/22776349
http://www.pnas.org/...5.full.pdf html
http://cancerres.aac...3/6615.abstract
http://endo.endojour...8.abstract#fn-1

 

Cures Lung Cancer

 

http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/22198381
http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/21097714
http://www.nature.co...s/1210641a.html

 

Cures Uterine, Testicular, and Pancreatic Cancers

 

http://www.cancer.go...fessional/page4
http://cancerres.aac...3/6748.abstract

 

Cures Prostate Cancer

 

http://www.ncbi.nlm....1?dopt=Abstract
http://www.ncbi.nlm....95/?tool=pubmed
http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/22594963

 

Cures Colorectal Cancer

 

http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/22231745
https://www.ncbi.nlm...pubmed/19442536
http://safeaccess.ca...CancerStudy.pdf
http://gut.bmj.com/c...2/1741.abstract

 

Cures Ovarian Cancer

 

http://www.aacrmeeti...act/2006/1/1084

 

Cures Blood Cancer

 

http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/12091357
http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/16908594
http://onlinelibrary....23584/abstract
http://molpharm.aspe...5/1612.abstract

 

Cures Skin Cancer

 

http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/12511587

 

Cures Liver Cancer

 

http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/21475304

 

Cures Biliary Tract Cancer

 

http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/19916793

 

Cures Bladder Cancer

 

http://www.medscape....warticle/803983

 

Cures Cancer in General

 

http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/12514108
http://www.ncbi.nlm....pubmed/15313899

 

Fuck cancer, and fuck drug warriors in the ass with a cactus.



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Posted 02 October 2013 - 10:12 PM

ime am allwayes worriede when I see thisse theade resurfisise



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Posted 02 October 2013 - 11:03 PM

Ditto.

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Posted 03 October 2013 - 03:19 AM

I sailed my first Transpac with my father in 1975 and would go on to sail 5 more races to Hawaii with him including one double handed race in a Open 50 but now he has passed due to cancer.  I learned a great deal about myself and my father during the thousands of miles we sailed together.  Perhaps the most important lesson he taught me are these words we he spoke often while we were at sea;

 

"The sea has become an important benchmark in my life and in the everyday stress of America it is too easy to become like the chameleon and change color without even knowing it.  As far as we know the sea has the same appearance now that it had 3 billion years ago.  It reacts the same now to the physical forces of wind and waves as it always has.  When I go back to sea and it seems different, I know that I am the one who has changed and not the sea.  The sea has allowed me to develop a peaceful relationship to the world.  It has helped me find what I can know and what I cannot know and from there to determine where knoledge ends and faith begins".

 

Next week I will be giving my father's eulogy in front of a diverse group of people from Academics, Vitners and Sailors.  I assure you that I will speak these words.

 

I realize that death is as much a part of life as birth itself but death is sad when it is premature.   I will miss my father, particularly our sailing trips together.  I was a "good show".



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Posted 03 October 2013 - 04:22 AM

I sailed my first Transpac with my father in 1975 and would go on to sail 5 more races to Hawaii with him including one double handed race in a Open 50 but now he has passed due to cancer.  I learned a great deal about myself and my father during the thousands of miles we sailed together.  Perhaps the most important lesson he taught me are these words we he spoke often while we were at sea;
 
"The sea has become an important benchmark in my life and in the everyday stress of America it is too easy to become like the chameleon and change color without even knowing it.  As far as we know the sea has the same appearance now that it had 3 billion years ago.  It reacts the same now to the physical forces of wind and waves as it always has.  When I go back to sea and it seems different, I know that I am the one who has changed and not the sea.  The sea has allowed me to develop a peaceful relationship to the world.  It has helped me find what I can know and what I cannot know and from there to determine where knoledge ends and faith begins".
 
Next week I will be giving my father's eulogy in front of a diverse group of people from Academics, Vitners and Sailors.  I assure you that I will speak these words.
 
I realize that death is as much a part of life as birth itself but death is sad when it is premature.   I will miss my father, particularly our sailing trips together.  I was a "good show".


Sorry to hear about your dad, Malcolm. He was a fine man, and raised you well. Vale, Rod.

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Posted 03 October 2013 - 10:37 AM

ime am allwayes worriede when I see thisse theade resurfisise

 

There is a reason for my post. That's all for now.



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Posted 03 October 2013 - 05:33 PM

I believe we all open this thread with heart in hand; hoping for the best, fearing the worst but knowing that whoever resurfaced it, came in need to the safest, most supportive place on SA and we oblige.

 

ime am allwayes worriede when I see thisse theade resurfisise



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Posted 03 October 2013 - 06:01 PM

ime am allwayes worriede when I see thisse theade resurfisise

 
There is a reason for my post. That's all for now.


Wait.....what??

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Posted 03 October 2013 - 10:32 PM

Post or not to post...

 

My mum has cancer again.

This time breast, last time somewhere else.

 

Been clear for years.

Surgery probably next week.

 

Find this thread difficult but somewhat drawn to it, something like what Bowgirl said.



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Posted 03 October 2013 - 11:43 PM

Sending thoughts of strength to you and your Mum, Furr_ball.

 

My sister-in-law had been clear for years, then developed breast cancer - the current thinking is that the treatment from 20+ years ago actually predisposed her to it.  Kinda like what they're discovering now in kids that have had cancer - that they're predisposed to cancer later in life.  SUCKS

 

In the plus column, treatment options have come a long way.  

 

The waiting still sucks.



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Posted 04 October 2013 - 11:18 AM


 

 

 


 

 

+1

 

 

FUCK cancer. I am so sick and tired of hearing about everyone dying of cancer. My mother died of caner. What the hell did the human race do to deserve such a horrid disease?

To all of those who are fighting it and to those who have kicked it's filthy ass, Keep up the fight.

My heart bleeds for Simon, Katie and their family. RIP Evo, you will be truly missed.

 

 

juswannagofast - this is a good place for support and humour. We feel all things deeply - we cheer successes, we cry when the battle is lost. Let us know what you need from us (shoulder, ear, kick in the ass, slap upside the head, tacky jokes, anything) - we're good for it. ;)
Cheering you on!

Jetfuel - I'm so sorry about the loss of your friend. There are no good words. I know you're haunted by your remission and the possible end thereof, but please focus on the good and positive fact that 2 years have passed of fully lived life, and more await.

One thing I'm learning is that there is always an end - we just never know when it's coming, so the middle we have that we call "life" is up to us to ensure we wring every drop out of.
After all, no one has yet succeeded in cheating death - we all go sometime. I just hate that f*king cancer robs friends of years and robs me of the presence of my friends.

Big hugs to those of us here mourning the loss of Evo.

 

 

Thanks y'all.  And a special thanks to all the Anarchists that came to his funeral and wake (I was a little tipsy).  

 

Over seven months later, I'm finally starting to feel like I'm coming out of the fog of shock.  We loved being married to each other and had a wonderful respected friendship.  

 

Cancer can kiss my lily-white arse~!  He was too young to die and I am to young to be a widow.  

 

Haven't been on a boat since scattering Simon's ashes on the Harbour and then Yowie Bay/Port Hacking.  

 

Not sure if you guys have noticed an Evo-void here on Anarchy - but there certainly is a huge one in our little home by the sea.  

 

~Skirts (aka 'the wee-widow Evans').

 

Definitley, Evo had a great skill in distracting me from work :P

 

ime am allwayes worriede when I see thisse theade resurfisise

Me too



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Posted 04 October 2013 - 09:51 PM

I miss Evo!

Fair winds mate.



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Posted 05 October 2013 - 10:08 AM

I miss Evo!
Fair winds mate.


I miss him too mate.

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Posted 05 October 2013 - 11:20 AM

me to



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Posted 05 October 2013 - 05:10 PM

My mother recently got over a slug of Osophegeak (however its fucking spelt) cancer, and, during chemo had a stroke. Old bitch is back to smoking a pack a day and telling her doctors she gave up years ago....my take on it is at 69 the horse has bolted and she might as well smoke to her hearts content.

 

On a more serious note, my mother and my family got off very lightly, and feel for those less fotunate. As much as I hate to say it she isnt 100% what she was 12 months ago but shes with us.



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Posted 06 October 2013 - 01:53 AM

At 38 my mom died of Cancer.  I was 13.  Today, I am 50 and watching it all happen again to my dad.  Tough days.  My mom and dad gave me opportunities, like sailing, which I cherrish today.



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Posted 06 October 2013 - 12:30 PM

SpeedSquare, my heart sank.  One is never prepared for this, at any age.  Wishing you both a very full time together.



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Posted 07 October 2013 - 06:29 PM

SpeedSquare, my heart sank.  One is never prepared for this, at any age.  Wishing you both a very full time together.

 

+1

 

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Posted 08 October 2013 - 10:17 PM

My beautiful, wonderful and inspiring uncle lost his battle with cancer today, and what a battle it was. Phil fought til the very last second. We're going to miss him terribly :(

 

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Posted 09 October 2013 - 12:15 AM

GrouchyIRL - here's to fair winds in your uncle's sails as he passes the horizon, gone from sight.  

And thank you for bringing back memories of The Pogues!  



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Posted 09 October 2013 - 07:54 PM

Last night my dad lost his battle to cancer.  He was an awesome and vibrant man, lived for his 3 boys, and gave me opportunities beyond measure.  He will be missed by all that he touched.



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Posted 11 October 2013 - 02:58 AM

Condolences speed, real sorry to hear.

 

My mum?

Surgery done this week, home now, looks like found it early and no where else.

Bone scans etc all clear, last test of lymph back next week, fingers crossed.

 

I am lucky to say my mum has so far come out on the right side, two times now.

 

My thoughts to all who have to travel this road.






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