I am similar. I used to be more conservative until it became a bad word filled with fascists. There is nothing really conservative about the GOP anymore.What's remarkable to me is that I am conservative. I believe in a strong defense, fiscal rectitude, free trade, and government that does not intrude into people's private lives. I was a Republican until 2003, when Bush 2 invaded Iraq, and it became clear to me that the GOP was courting White, Christian Evangelicals, and gun crazed Second Amendment fanatics, by supporting their agendas.
Face it, these causes do not affect the top 1% one iota, but enable the GOP to enact policies which benefit their donors, at the expense of their supporters, who are too stupid, or too focused on social issues to see the con job.
The Republican party is unrecognizable to me. They are no longer conservative. They are Donald Trump's party, nothing but a personality cult, devoted to a malignant, self absorbed con-man, who cares nothing for the country or his supporters.
It is a sickening state of affairs.