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I will, not because I particularly want to but because I can't be any other way.Stay stubborn…
At this point I can't do a lot except sit in my man cave and browse the internet and have occasional visits with friends. Simple things like taking a shower require a lot of effort and wear me out. I drive to town to get cigarettes and have a nice dinner at a friend's restaurant now and then, it's exhausting, but I push myself to move because I can. When I'm eating, often my arms and hands start to shake form the effort to get the fork to my mouth. At some point in the not too distant future the effort will be too much and I'm not going to just lay around the house and vegetate. That's no kind of life. There are worse things than death. But while I can still find some small pleasures in existing, I'm doing the best I can. Knowing I can end it when I choose gives me comfort and keeps me going a little longer. It's one of the few things I can control.